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Ok, i found this website by accident a few weeks ago, partly because i came across the term D.D by accident on wikipedia, when i started reading about it i noticed how similar it was to the things i have felt all my life
i remember feeling alive before a certain age, i think it was before age 11. all the years before age 11 were filled with life, my perception was enhanced, or i guess it was normal
but then, after that age, i started feeling different, i felt as i was inside of a dream, all of the time, reality felt unreal, the weirdest thing were the hyper real dreams which i had from time to time, dreams in which i actually felt more alive than in the real world, that's when i knew something was wrong with me
so i started seeing doctors, but none of them figured it out, they gave me different pills, i have been on different types of pills for years but i stopped taking them because they didn't remove the symptom of feeling like 'in a dream' all the time
i eventually gave up and realized that maybe life was supposed to be this way, the thing is that this problem has basically rendered me unable to do anything, i was never able to complete anything significant in my life, i never completed college, or any proyect, i was never constant, i never achieved anything, because i lost motivation too fast, i was always disconnected with my mind, with my proyects, the doctors told me i had something called absences, which is some kind of brain reset, and that it was the reason i suddenly lost touch and interest with the things i started, another thing that has been messing my life and draining my time are screens and computers, video games and such, it is as if i get close to one of those thing i just get plugged, time goes by without even noticing it, days fly by and i get to be stuck in this vicious circle of no progress, life was pointless because no matter how much mental or physical effort i put in it, i wasn't really going to acomplish anything
i'm open to suggestions, if you know of any special meds to remove this symptom of feeling like in a dream all the time i would apreaciate you telling me, i am now out of options so i guess special meds would be my last resort
Thanks for reading.
i remember feeling alive before a certain age, i think it was before age 11. all the years before age 11 were filled with life, my perception was enhanced, or i guess it was normal
but then, after that age, i started feeling different, i felt as i was inside of a dream, all of the time, reality felt unreal, the weirdest thing were the hyper real dreams which i had from time to time, dreams in which i actually felt more alive than in the real world, that's when i knew something was wrong with me
so i started seeing doctors, but none of them figured it out, they gave me different pills, i have been on different types of pills for years but i stopped taking them because they didn't remove the symptom of feeling like 'in a dream' all the time
i eventually gave up and realized that maybe life was supposed to be this way, the thing is that this problem has basically rendered me unable to do anything, i was never able to complete anything significant in my life, i never completed college, or any proyect, i was never constant, i never achieved anything, because i lost motivation too fast, i was always disconnected with my mind, with my proyects, the doctors told me i had something called absences, which is some kind of brain reset, and that it was the reason i suddenly lost touch and interest with the things i started, another thing that has been messing my life and draining my time are screens and computers, video games and such, it is as if i get close to one of those thing i just get plugged, time goes by without even noticing it, days fly by and i get to be stuck in this vicious circle of no progress, life was pointless because no matter how much mental or physical effort i put in it, i wasn't really going to acomplish anything
i'm open to suggestions, if you know of any special meds to remove this symptom of feeling like in a dream all the time i would apreaciate you telling me, i am now out of options so i guess special meds would be my last resort
Thanks for reading.
