Basically what i do everyday is obsess over completely irrational things. It used to be just hypochondria. but now i obsess about being possessed by a demon, being drugged (LSD)and becoming schizophrenic. i really dont know how to control it anymore.. its affecting my school work, social life. everything. im scared to eat anything or drink anything because im scared it will have lsd in it and ill trip out and have a panic attack ill constantly check for any visuals or the whole combined senses thing, and i get depersonalized which makes me think im high and someone did poision me and that leads to a panic attack. i know its all irrational but the thoughts never leave. and when im not worried about being high on lsd. im worried about being possessed by a demon. i actually know where this fear came from though. i used ouija in the past and it made me really paranoid about being possessed. so then i have to go and pray to jesus just to prove i can and show myself im not possessed. also , my fears cycle. its usually between those two every other day though. i know its all in my head because when my minds off my obsessions i feel fine. then they creep back up and i get anxious and depressed and depersonalized all over again. anyone else worry about being on lsd like me? or maybe the whole possession thing... ?
Well I dont know about the whole being on LSD all the time thing but don't worry I have strange thoughts too. For a long time I thought my inner being was being sucked out of my body by a god from an alternate existence. I would literally feel like I was leaking out my inner self and becoming less and less. I thought the one true God did not know this which made me even more scared. I decided not to shake my faith. I believed in my deluded thought so much that it was reality. To anyone this sounds crazy even to me now but at that moment I was believing in it strong. I prayed to God in Jesus name and the thought left me even though I had to make myself believe in what the Bible says 'God knows me better than myself'. I was still derealised and depersonalised though. I am praying against that too. Day by day I recover. Cant wait for what tomorrow holds.
Ye me to Iv suffered big time I even went to see the vicar at church to see if I was poss by something so I no how that feels and read everything about schz and convinced myself I was one but I got my insight although I still have them doubts .ocd to with me harming people 6 years and still going hate this life man
Ye me to Iv suffered big time I even went to see the vicar at church to see if I was poss by something so I no how that feels and read everything about schz and convinced myself I was one but I got my insight although I still have them doubts .ocd to with me harming people 6 years and still going hate this life man
i know the feeligs i been dealing with really bad anxiety and dp for 5months now ive had wierd symptoms and feelings sensce i was 14 i am now 22 ive been to the er a couple times because i thought i was dying but all my test are normal but in my mind i keep thinking i have a illness or the feeling im going crazy its a really uncomfortable feeling i feel out of place i feel that my mind is here but my body isnt i dont enjoy things i use to my mind races sometimes i pinch or bite my self to remind my self that im here crazey i know when i go into public i have panic attacks i feel anxious all the time its crazey i use to be really active but i barely get out of bed anymore i just need someone to talk to who understands i try to explain to my family how i feel but they dont understand its just really depressing its like life has been sucked out of me i lost my job and everything due to this i think it could have been caused by a wreck i had i didnt get hurt but could have got hurt or even killed i was slung across to intersections after hitting a rail coming off a exit ramp and almost got hit by a 18 wheeler i started having really wierd feelings if any one can relate or have any advice please comment
DUDE... i know exaclty how you feel, ive been tripping dick bad ass fuck thinking everything i drink is spiked with LSD, like some one pulled a prank on me an put LSD in my drink then i get a permatrip develope scitzophrenia end up in a insane asylum forver,...........GAMEOVER, I cant even go to fucking mcdonalds without having a panic attack after bitting into a hameburger, (A FUCKING HAMEBURGER)... lol the only time i can drink something is out of the faucet, AT MY HOUSE, if someone offers me a drink or something to eat i automatically think they drugged it with LSD,......BUT I FOUND A WAY TO GET OVER IT, you just got to GIVE NO FUCKS, SAY FUCK IT get pumped up an just scream AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH, lol it works for me, or i just think of the time when i was never fearlful of being drugged(which was about 99% of my life)
i know the feeligs i been dealing with really bad anxiety and dp for 5months now ive had wierd symptoms and feelings sensce i was 14 i am now 22 ive been to the er a couple times because i thought i was dying but all my test are normal but in my mind i keep thinking i have a illness or the feeling im going crazy its a really uncomfortable feeling i feel out of place i feel that my mind is here but my body isnt i dont enjoy things i use to my mind races sometimes i pinch or bite my self to remind my self that im here crazey i know when i go into public i have panic attacks i feel anxious all the time its crazey i use to be really active but i barely get out of bed anymore i just need someone to talk to who understands i try to explain to my family how i feel but they dont understand its just really depressing its like life has been sucked out of me i lost my job and everything due to this i think it could have been caused by a wreck i had i didnt get hurt but could have got hurt or even killed i was slung across to intersections after hitting a rail coming off a exit ramp and almost got hit by a 18 wheeler i started having really wierd feelings if any one can relate or have any advice please comment
dude ik how u feel, i used to feel the same way (i kind of still do just not as much) an the way i got over it was just saying fuck it, I JUST GOT SO FEED UP WITH THE FEELING AN THE PARANOIA I JUST SAID FUCK IT, IM DONE, i remember screaming real loud yelling I GIVE NO FUCKS, IM NOT GONNA LET THIS THING TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE, so what did i do? i faced all my fears, you said when you go into public you get panic attacks? the best thing to do (this is gonna sound hard) but go into a room full of a bunch of people an have the worse panic attack ever!!!! i mean really sink it in, face all you depersonalization fears not giving a fuck, because the reason you feel depersonalization is because you care to much, its a form of anxiety over thinking, face your fears, get some hobbies, find something you like, it took me a while because i thought everything was pointless, but then i got into parkour an that gets my mind of stuff, an i think almost dying thing could of caused alot of trauma on you, which trauma is a cause of depersonalization, so if i was you i would just say FUCK IT THIS ISNT ANXIETY SHIT ISNT GONNA TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE, FACE YOUR FEARS EVERY ONE OF THEM, thats what i had to do, it was painful an took time but youll beat it, JUST BE FEARLESS, BECAUSE ANXIETY IS FEAR,
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