[Weirdo25]

ive never been diagnosed with depersonalization since I've never brought it up to a specialist. my parents have brushed it off for as long as i can remember. ive had this since i was like 7-8 years old; i can't remember my exact age, but I remember trying for years to explain this feeling to my parents with my limited vocabulary at the time. they just told me to not think about it? im currently 16 years old and my parents refuse to let me seek help
the help they suggest for me is a bible study
instead of listening to my pleads for therapy
Last year was the first time i decided to research my feelings, and everything ive felt, suddenly was put into words and into the depersonalization disorder.
I also experience derealization and have been having weird hallucinations at the corner of my eyes of weird shadow like figure
I keep doing my own research on my own
AND I REALLY NEED HELP
i want help-
My parents ask, "What is it you search for? "And if you get diagnosed, then what?"
then what?-
im not sure what i expect a therapist to do besides talk and perhaps give me medications.
They say I'm just putting all this in my head, but I'm just researching it intensely now because it's the only way for me to try to better understand This.
Thank you and i will continue seeking for professional help despite my parents disapproval.
Im glad to have found a community like me

 

[Trith]

My mother was very much like what you describe from your parents. My problems were never important and I was supposed to not bother her with that. Sometimes she pretended she cared when she was forced to, but all she wanted was that I stop having everything that made me an individual just so that I would make more space for her. My problems were always ignored or dismissed because she was a narcissist. I believe she contributed to many of my problems, including my DPDR. My relationship with her didn't teach me self validation and didn't help me grow and exist as an individual. Everything in me that was not serving her interest was ignored.

 

[Weirdo25]

My mother was very much like what you describe from your parents. My problems were never important and I was supposed to not bother her with that. Sometimes she pretended she cared when she was forced to, but all she wanted was that I stop having everything that made me an individual just so that I would make more space for her. My problems were always ignored or dismissed because she was a narcissist. I believe she contributed to many of my problems, including my DPDR. My relationship with her didn't teach me self validation and didn't help me grow and exist as an individual. Everything in me that was not serving her interest was ignored.

im glad to not be the only one!

 

[NoDevils]

Look into what your rights are. Depriving a child of treatment is sadistic and suggesting Bible study is an alternative for treatment is amazingly idiotic. My advice for you is to get an education or advanced training so you won't be dependent on these people. Mental health treatment and proper diagnosis may be necessary before proceeding with education and career, I dunno. Basically you don't want to wait to feel good to start proceeding with your adult life but you should have your head on straight before making any permanent decisions.

My parents were also narcissistic and an active detriment to me. I've basically had to establish some type of verbal dominance over my mother because she's just not capable of empathy and would continually peck at me if I allowed her to do so. She seems a little bit capable of sympathy and will occasionally do something to help me. My father was such a psychotic bully that I have chosen permanent zero communication with him. The only solution for people who are always right is to be away from them, but this is only feasible if finances permit.