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Honestly, idk where to start. My head is always thinking about something. All the time. I've got constantly worries going thro my head. And the worse is, it seems I can´t control this. Idk when the DP symptoms started precisely, but the truth is since two months ago I feel I'm living a dream, every day. I know, I guess this will sound a joke to you, "just two months? I'm suffering for years..." but this whole experience is new to me and it was fucking scary at the beginning. I think this whole bullshit started not for smoking cannabis (numb 2007), but probably because of anxiety attacks, panic attacks, w/e. I just wanted to be a child again, nothing to worry about. Now, when I get up, the first thing that comes to my mind is "How am I? Have I any symptoms or something?". Then the exams always pressuring me, I want to be happy, and I have happy moments, but it's like I am not living it. I'm not there. It's hard to focus, besides lights (even the sunlight) started to obfuscate me, just like being in a place with many people (actually this one always did, since I was a little kid). I've got to say, in the beginning, my worries were if I had some kind of disease like heart problems or even cancer. Of course, to add to my asthma. But apparently not. I didn't conform myself at that time. I still don't. And I still don't get it, I'm young, but my head is always thinking about something (usually bad things). People tell me that I will get better when I fell in love with someone. What do you think? Does DP have a cure?
P.S: My username is quite suggesting, let me know If I committed any lexical or orthographical error.
P.S: My username is quite suggesting, let me know If I committed any lexical or orthographical error.