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I have posted here quite a few times, but I haven't had the courage to tell my story. This started for me a little over 2 months ago. I went to the Dr. because of headaches. In the past I have been misdiagnosed with blood clots in my head and psuedotumor cerebri, but that is a whole different mess that I won't get into. Anyways... the Dr. mentioned that maybe I had an anxiety disorder that was causing my headaches. I was extremely stressed out with school and other things in my life, so I was very vulnerable to what she said. Two days later I had my first ever panic attack. The really messed up part is that I was sitting there thinking, "anxiety disorder, great maybe I will start having panic attacks." I brought it on myself! How stupid is that. After that I couldn't stop thinking about the panic attacks. I went back to the Dr. and she gave me Zoloft. After I took it I got way way worse. My anxiety increased 10 fold and I couldn't hardly stand it. I started feeling disconnected and detached from myself, everyone, and everything around me. Of course I completely freaked out. Got off the Zoloft and took Xanax for a few weeks. Then depression hit me and I just wanted to die I felt so bad. Went to see a couple of therapist. 3 to be exact. They all told me that I was suffering from anxiety and depression, but none of them wanted to talk about the dp/dr I was expericing. Then I did the worst thing possible I started researching on the internet and I have convinced myself that I am going through the prodromal stage of schizophrenia, and it is only a matter of time before I completely lose it... I HATE the way this feels and if anyone has any suggestions I would be very grateful.