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Hi everyone. Im new to this website. I am almost 14 year old male. I need help. Heres my story. So pretty much my parents went out of town for the weekend. I was fine until randomly while watching tv i felt like i wasnt real. And everything kind of felt like a dream. It was late so i just decided to go to sleep because i thought i was just tired. The next morning i woke up. Still with the feeling. I thought nothing of it. So i just watched tv all day. And when it turned night i think i had a panic attack. Because i found out about dp/dr and read that people have had it for 20 years+ and it freaked me out. I just sat in my bed with my dog trying to go to sleep. The next morning was monday. My parents were back home. And so i told them what was happening, what i think is wrong with me, and that i couldnt go to school. Thankfully i didnt have to. I was having serious panic attacks. And appetite changes. And i didnt feel any joy in anything. Which caused another panic attack. So i researched depersonalization more and found this guy who said he had low testosterone so i went to the store and bought natural testosterone pills. I was taking them for a week. And i went to get blood work to see if that was the problem. So i got the blood work back and it said my testosterone levels were normal. But i had crazy low vitamin D. So i got vitamin D pills. The second week i was feeling better. I thought i was recovering and felt 70-80% better. So i went to school. And was feeling good. I was happy again. Then that weekend. Bam it was cloudy i believe and i fell back into the pit of depersonalization. Cloudy days make it much worse. Anyway i havent felt as good as i didnt the second week. And this has been non stop for almost 2 months. I feel like it is getting worse. All i do is stay home and watch tv. Could that be contributing to the dp? Now ill list everything that couldve caused this that i know of that have happened to me. I know im young but thats in the past.But didnt feel depersonalization the next day or anything. But what i want to know is could that have caused this. Because it was so long ago. Also im deathly afraid of planes. And i fly like 15 times a year. But the last flight i went on we flew through some green gas and there was a smell on the plane that was burning my nostrils. I thought i was going to die. I have also been diagnosed with separation anxiety and some other anxietys. My mom also thinks i have mild adhd and OCD. But i dont know. Can someone just help explain what might be happening. I always think im losing control of myself. Or that i have skitsofrenia.
Sorry for such a long post.
Sorry for such a long post.