I'm sorry, I wish I could do something to help. Its impossible for me to physically be there for you obviously. If you feel as if you are a threat to yourself, then you should go to the hospital. However, if this has happened before and you calmed down, then all I can say is to ride it out as best as you can, distract yourself, and simply wait until it passes.
It sucks, it really does and we all know it and are hoping the best for you. Try when you get in a panic, to slow down mentally, I know it is hard but find a focus , your breathing, anything and slow down. I know since you have anxiety and panic that you know all about breathing,,, try to practice it.. The MRI you have today will reveal what ever your issues are with your spine and they will know how to help you.
Maybe your panic was a reaction to the medication you took, maybe you could request a different pain killer. Man what you are going through is so hard I wish you didn't have to go through it, but once you get all your medical questions answered, you will have some relief because you will know where you stand.
Remember each time you felt as if you were going to loose reality , you didn't.... remember that . YOu are not going crazy, your anxiety is just really peaked high right now.... Try not to give into the secondary fear the anxiety is trying to create....
Hey Space....I'm with you man. I've never been in quite the same situation as you...but I remember when I was in hospital being pumped full of chemo, and I was so full of panic and anxiety you wouldn't believe it. And the bastards (until afterwards) wouldn't give me anything to calm me down.
I don't know your personal situation, so I can't comment. But either way, you've got got got got got got got to get help. Even in the most uncivilised world with the most unsympatheic people, they wouldn't leave you like this.
I dare to suggest that your past problems with addiction have got something to do with this, but who knows. I can't remember you ever posting anything that might have caused your DR/DP, besides your addictions. Past trauma's, what? Tell us, so we can try and help.
Your suffering is our suffering mate. You are not alone. But you must take action, and now.
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