HELP!!!!!!

Call your psychiatrist, call your therapist, set up appointments. Just take some action and set things up. Call or see a close friend and let them know whats going on, or a close family member. There's all kinds of support out there, you just have to get the courage up to ask.

Don't wait, take action now. I went through this last summer and it worked out fine for me. No need to suffer alone like this, even though that seems like most of the problem in a nutshell

Good luck, it gets easier.

Just to put this out there... never fear its too late to get help. But please ask for help.

If your doctor's scratching his chin and saying "hmmm, interesting..." tell him how you are getting desperate and experiencing suicidal thinking, even though you know you could never kill yourself. This will get him on the right page with you, it works like a charm. Its called suicide ideation, and its a component of depression and it SUCKS. I've had to deal with it several times in the last seven years.

If you're feeling really shitty, just always remember you can walk in to any emergency room at any hospital and tell them what's going on. I understand how difficult it is, is SO difficult, it takes tremendous courage and strength to ask for help.

But ask for it, and you will receive it. That's how it goes. And that's how it went for me...