[Guest]

AAAAAAAAa, where do i start.....
I hate my life. I have been thinking about suicide lately, but i don't really want to die. I just want this shit to stop. So how do i make it stop? I CANNOT live like this. I don't know how to ask for help or what i kind of help i need. How the fuck do i make people take me seriously??? It feels like i'm on the brink of complete insanity and my mind can't decide which way to go. It's like that saying, "shit or get off the pot," and i can't do either because i'm a constipated parapalegic. Anyway, I'm kind of drowning hear so any support of suggestions would be greatly apreciated.

 

[Ben]

Nothing,

Yes, I have been in your shoes before. I have had suicide stare me straight in the face and I've had death stare me straight in the face too by doing things that nearly killed me. The reality is that these "fixes" wouldn't solve anything, as you would simply miss out on the life you have ahead of you, the life you can't see right now but that does exist.

I won't insult you by sitting here and telling you what is causing your problems right now as I really don't think the disorder is as simple as that; it is very complicated and the causes and such can be the result of a lot of intertangled life issues. Really, it will do you a lot of good to talk to someone, but (unfortunately), I have read a lot of posts on this board from people who say that their counselors were quacks; so I must be lucky 'cause mine have saved me both times.

What to do? First off, don't kill yourself. That sounds odd to say right now, but killing yourself isn't going to solve anything. You think it might, but realize that you'd simply let it win, you'd let it take your life. Next, stay around here and keep talking, listening, and observing. Last, you need to get up and out in life, you simply cannot sit still. Remember the abbreviation PYA or Push Your Ass. Move yourself to do something, anything, that can help.

Read back over a lot of these threads, even spending an afternoon sometime to get the feel for the group and what we've said to each other. Just slow down and regain yourself one step at a time....

 

[bright23]

Call your psychiatrist, call your therapist, set up appointments. Just take some action and set things up. Call or see a close friend and let them know whats going on, or a close family member. There's all kinds of support out there, you just have to get the courage up to ask.

Don't wait, take action now. I went through this last summer and it worked out fine for me. No need to suffer alone like this, even though that seems like most of the problem in a nutshell

Good luck, it gets easier.

 

[Guest]

I've tried to get out in the world and ignore my symptoms but they are so physical and so real it's just impossible. I am spiraling out of control, and when i tell my psychiatrist or my psychologist this they say, "hmmmm interesting." What else are they supposed to do? I am just so miserable and you say it gets better but it just seems to keep getting worse. It feels like i'm not going to last much longer. Thank you for the positive input, and sorry if i seem to be resisting it, i'm trying not to.

 

[widescreened]

Just keep going.Dont know if you work or if you are too confused to,but a part time job to start with would be a big help.Dont think too far into the future,and try to get a job working with people you like.
Exercise as well and if possible,get involved in team sports/activities.I have a history of cutting myself off from people and going solo.this is no good whatsoever for the condition,it only turns up the volume inside my head

 

[M A R S]

I have felt like this all night, im at the end of my fight. What can i do? Im shot. I feel like if i dont have fear any more then i have nothing.

Im SHOT

 

[danjames4]

I'm like that right now as well, Im 17, I got this last june and you know what I know it feels like shit actually its indescribable. Life seems hopeless etc. But your going to have to hang in there its all you can do, think of suicide as not an option(Its a cowards way out). Umm yeah it crosses my mind once and a while but thats the Dp/Anxiety/Depression talking in all of us. And I'm very scared for my future but you know there are good times even with this, its just we cant pinpoint them when we feel so down and + most of our memory is horrible. I dont know if anyone agrees with me, people dont just stay with this there whole lives, Our bodies will figure themselves out with some of our help the best thing to do is hang in there, our minds are injured and guess what it takes to fix our minds??? Our minds. Thats why its so hard. Because when we try to fix your injured mindit just hurts it more for the time being(well at seems like it) but really were helping it in the long run. Every time(I know it doesnt seem like it) we go outside for a walk it helps we see real stuff which slowly brings us back. Well I dont want to hold you up all day so I dunno post. Its not the end of the world.
Cheers Dan
Oh and a lot of suicidal thoughts are trying to get attention so go talk to someone phone anyone you know it doesnt matter, educate other people as well. bye

 

[Guest]

And I'm very scared for my future but you know there are good times even with this, its just we cant pinpoint them when we feel so down and + most of our memory is horrible. I dont know if anyone agrees with me, people dont just stay with this there whole lives, Our bodies will figure themselves out with some of our help the best thing to do is hang in there, our minds are injured and guess what it takes to fix our minds??? Our minds.

That's well said man. I'm 23 and you seem to have a better idea than me. I was having a bad nite with it until I read your post. When you're in the midst of a DP/DR bout, you can't see anything else. The anxiety blurs the past and blots out the future. But a better future is out there. You just have to be patient and have faith in yourself and your mental health professionals (who I have been fortunate enough to do well with). Good luck to everyone. Just remember, when you're in a bout, it's just your perception that's shifted. It's kinda like when you lose a girlfriend (or boyfriend if that's your fancy): in the moment it's miserable and you feel like you'll never forget about them. But then one day, you wake up and it's gone. Just have faith and it'll pass.

 

[bright23]

Just to put this out there... never fear its too late to get help. But please ask for help.

If your doctor's scratching his chin and saying "hmmm, interesting..." tell him how you are getting desperate and experiencing suicidal thinking, even though you know you could never kill yourself. This will get him on the right page with you, it works like a charm. Its called suicide ideation, and its a component of depression and it SUCKS. I've had to deal with it several times in the last seven years.

If you're feeling really shitty, just always remember you can walk in to any emergency room at any hospital and tell them what's going on. I understand how difficult it is, is SO difficult, it takes tremendous courage and strength to ask for help.

But ask for it, and you will receive it. That's how it goes. And that's how it went for me...