[help101]

hi i don’t really post on here as i’m just a reader and her obsessed with other peoples stories.
i know i should get off this site as i’m on it 24/7 which is only keeping me in the loop. however, it all started with a build up of stress and i just want to explain my symptoms

different ones bother me on different days but the best i can explain it is, i’m stuck in the present moment, the past feels so far away even 2 seconds ago. i blink and the whole day has gone. i never ever feel grounded and feel asif i’m just a body floating around. when i talk it’s like my mouth is doing it and i’m not which really freaks me out. i’m not as panicky anymore but i was just wondering if anyone resonates although i’m sure many do

very depressed and have lost all emotion, i cant even be sad anymore. i just want to CONNECT WITH THE GODDAM WORLD. any tips or advice will be greatly appreciated. thank you

 

[Stevemc92]

Classic dp/dr yes it’s very scary and horrible but there’s light at the end of the tunnel I have had this many times have you tried medication?

 

[help101]

Classic dp/dr yes it’s very scary and horrible but there’s light at the end of the tunnel I have had this many times have you tried medication?

i tried zoloft and it made me hallucinate, i’m more aiming for a holistic approach, i just feel like i’m getting worse eberyday although all i’m doing is laying in a dark room on this forum which is probably why it’s getting worse

 

[Stevemc92]

Many different medications out there ssris take a few months to kick in Prozac has helped me a lot as well as seeing a psychologist and keeping busy

 

[Stevemc92]

i tried zoloft and it made me hallucinate, i’m more aiming for a holistic approach, i just feel like i’m getting worse eberyday although all i’m doing is laying in a dark room on this forum which is probably why it’s getting worse

I’ve had severe dpdr many times when I’m better I forget all about this forum just come back too help

 

[help101]

I’ve had severe dpdr many times when I’m better I forget all about this forum just come back too help

do you think me staying on here 24/7 is making it worse?

 

[Stevemc92]

Yeah there’s a lot of negative people on here, it used to be less toxic but there’s so many people here who bash ssris which helped me massively I know I get more anxious being on here but I’m just bored tbh

 

[help101]

Yeah there’s a lot of negative people on here, it used to be less toxic but there’s so many people here who bash ssris which helped me massively I know I get more anxious being on here but I’m just bored tbh

could i message you?

 

[Stevemc92]

could i message you?

No problem

 

[Aridity]

I dmd you

 

[leminaseri]

hi i don’t really post on here as i’m just a reader and her obsessed with other peoples stories.
i know i should get off this site as i’m on it 24/7 which is only keeping me in the loop. however, it all started with a build up of stress and i just want to explain my symptoms

different ones bother me on different days but the best i can explain it is, i’m stuck in the present moment, the past feels so far away even 2 seconds ago. i blink and the whole day has gone. i never ever feel grounded and feel asif i’m just a body floating around. when i talk it’s like my mouth is doing it and i’m not which really freaks me out. i’m not as panicky anymore but i was just wondering if anyone resonates although i’m sure many do

very depressed and have lost all emotion, i cant even be sad anymore. i just want to CONNECT WITH THE GODDAM WORLD. any tips or advice will be greatly appreciated. thank you

can you elaborate on the losing emotion part

 

[help101]

can you elaborate on the losing emotion part

not happy sad excited etc

 

[leminaseri]

not happy sad excited etc

i was the same but it has gotten better. stay strong and keep going!

 

[help101]

i was the same but it has gotten better. stay strong and keep going!

haha do you have any tips? i’ve currently being in bed on my phone for 4 days straight

 

[leminaseri]

haha do you have any tips? i’ve currently being in bed on my phone for 4 days straight

i got dpdr in 2 bouts. the recent bout (started january 2020) i had too much responsibilities i must care about. so i didnt have the opportunity to stay at bed. but at my first bout when i was a teenager yet, i stayed whole weeks at my bed in different periods. i didnt care about anything.

 

[help101]

i got dpdr in 2 bouts. the recent bout (started january 2020) i had too much responsibilities i must care about. so i didnt have the opportunity to stay at bed. but at my first bout when i was a teenager yet, i stayed whole weeks at my bed in different periods. i didnt care about anything.

what did you do to help? and what triggered it if you don’t mind me asking ?

 

[leminaseri]

what did you do to help? and what triggered it if you don’t mind me asking ?

you can look into all of my old posts here i literally posted everything from my life but to keep it short 2011 i had have a bad experience with weed what triggered my first experience. i was able to recover fully. and my second episode was triggered by a major depression and anxiety. im not completely recovered yet but slowly life gives me hope and joy again. ymmv but to keep in mind that a good amount of people recover can drive your life-purpose. second advice is people with dpd are often in illusion that their lifes will be ultimately perfect and they will become the happiest person on earth. this isnt true. life is without dpd very hard either.

take care

 

[Trith]

hi i don’t really post on here as i’m just a reader and her obsessed with other peoples stories.
i know i should get off this site as i’m on it 24/7 which is only keeping me in the loop. however, it all started with a build up of stress and i just want to explain my symptoms

different ones bother me on different days but the best i can explain it is, i’m stuck in the present moment, the past feels so far away even 2 seconds ago. i blink and the whole day has gone. i never ever feel grounded and feel asif i’m just a body floating around. when i talk it’s like my mouth is doing it and i’m not which really freaks me out. i’m not as panicky anymore but i was just wondering if anyone resonates although i’m sure many do

very depressed and have lost all emotion, i cant even be sad anymore. i just want to CONNECT WITH THE GODDAM WORLD. any tips or advice will be greatly appreciated. thank you

I relate very much with the "it's my mouth speaking and not me anymore". I have had this during some episodes in the beginning. I relate to with feeling disconnected. It might sound stupid, but right now what helps me is to "want" to be more connected. During different times in my life I have had some too difficult feelings or emotions that I didn't want to feel anymore, and even if I don't feel anything very difficult now, I feel I have kept some of that strategy to dealing with inner problems. But I don't think it is possible to sort feelings. I cannot be numb with bad things and open to good feelings, either I feel numb to everything or I accept everything. But sometimes, most certainly, some things are too difficult to feel and numbing is useful. Like if you have crippling anxiety or ptsd, perhaps feeling numb on top of it can be useful until the anxiety problem is solved. (And if DPDR is causing too much anxiety itself, perhaps that viscious cycle needs to be broken first, and this might be why a lot of people can recover just by focusing less on their symptoms). But personally, now in my life I feel that things can be felt because they are not too bad anymore, and reminding me of that all the time, and reminding me I want to feel all things, good and bad, makes me feel a bit more connected. There is no making up the feelings, or pulling them to the surface, just wanting to have them whatever they are exactly and as simply as they are, good and bad.
Or, perhaps I should say I should listen to whatever small feeling is coming to the surface and ask myself the question "not feeling numb means I might now feel this feeling, do I want this or not?" and respond honestly instead of assuming the answer is yes and running forward with my head down (which is what I tend to do when I don't listen to my feelings). So basically, every time I feel something, I kind of ask myself, "am I saying yes or no to the feeling?".
And I feel that when I feel more connected, the world becomes a bit more real exactly at the same time (I also remember reading in a book or a paper that it was actually emotional detachment itself that made people feel as if things were not real, at least it was their theory).
But perhaps also the chronic DPDR I am having right now is different from what I had when I had stronger episodes, and it might be different from what you have.
Are there any feelings you do not want to have right now?