[spectator162]

Hello everybody im new here sinds today. Im 25 and have dp/dr for 5 years or more. This period is like I never lived, I dont feel any connection with nobody/nothing including myself.
How I feel today: Just awake, pushing myself every day to do things while im not enjoying anything. So I go for a walk, first half hour of my walk I feel calm, fast I can feel the dp controlling me. Afther one hour its totally there, I feel like one big mess. My head is messed up feel dizzy and I wanna throw up. I feel alone. Im like turning around in my head nothing feels real. I look at the sea, at people at myself, nothing is real its wrser then dreaming. Everything is so vane, I feel high. I feel all the reactions of people, sounds, thoughts all mixed up in my head, what am I doing? What do I see? Why is everybody looking at me? What do I need to do in my life? Who what am I? How can I live with that? Im not enjoying anything. I cant do anything im blocked. But I keep pushing myself everyday. Can't do it anymore im so frustrated and sad it really needs to stop. Everything is getting worser my memory is so bad and feel getting crazy and demend. How can I recover what can help me? please send me a message and ask me anything and maybe we can find sollutions together...

 

[Adamharr1997]

Hi message me if you like my symptoms are the exact same it’s horrible

 

[Pondererer]

I know exactly what you mean. I'm 26, soon 27. It litterally feels like i was 20 yesterday. I really can't tell the difference. Soon enough i'll be 30, and all my years spent in 20's will gone, as if they never happened. Its quite shocking and mindblowing to think about. Luckily i don't feel much or care about anything because of DP, otherwise i would be freaking the fuck out§

 

[spectator162]

Yeah it really sucks... im soon 26 and just cant do anything... How can we if nothing cares and seems real. I prefer to die now then living a fake life. But still trying to find sollutions im sure there must be one... Im curious to meet people in life with dp, you now not on the internet, could that be like a good thing? Did you or someone else met someone with dp that you now of?