[Mipmunk]

Ok can somebody help me. I suffer on and off with DP, the last episode I had was 20 months ago. I have had 20 months of feeling perfectly ok. Due to a bitch of a boss at work and a big argument, I went home upset and then went on holiday and had a great time. When I came back to work I had to go back in and felt very uncomfortable and the atmosphere was awful. The situation has now been resolved, I think the boss in question has been spoken to about how awful she was to me. But I starting feeling the DP coming on. The who am I question started to bother me, and I could feel myself losing my identity and being scared of myself. Well I have been off of work, frightened and just sort of drifting through each day, not knowing who I am, and looking at people and imaging what it is like looking through their eyes and wondering if they feel like they know who they are. Well over this week I have slowly started to get better. I get these triggers, if anyone can relate to them. I feel really awful and then get a strange feeling come over me and then it is like a little bit of my identity comes back. At the moment I feel a lot better than what I did a few days ago, but "who am I" means something still, and still makes me uncomfortable. Can anybody relate to this triggers and when the DP goes, if it is something gradual, until eventually you get one final trigger and the DP is gone. I am now eating and sleeping but I still feel I am one or two triggers away from the DP having completely gone. Part of me is frightened of myself, but part of me feels okay. Can anyone relate to this triggers and how it can slowly start to lift you out of a DP state?

Can anyone help. I am bewildered at the moment, I feel more normal than what I did a week ago, but I feel my identity has not completely returned yet. When the DP does go away, is this a gradual thing? Can anyone help??

Mipmunk
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My thoughts are will all sufferers, this is such a dreadful and frightening illness.

 

[g-funk]

Mine is intermittent, like you, I can go for years, having odd feelings here and there and sometimes full blown for a week or one day or one month or at certain times of the day etc. It does feel like a 'trigger' that can go and suddenly lift you out of it, its weird, when dp'd, feeling normal always feels just around the corner - like on the tip of your tongue. And then your personality just clicks into place again. I have found it's like a moment of clarity - that I see the fear for what it is etc and then if I hold onto it I can run with it. The longer you stay like it, the easier it gets. Sometimes I would get it when researching the problem and something made me understand it a bit more, other times it would be me saying 'pull yourself together' or simply just happened for no reason. Not really sure as it's so hard to describe the feeling!