Hello, i have been looking at this site for some time and relate to so much of it. My mental health is worse than it's ever been and I am really frightened it's all over for me. I've had mental health issues since a young age, mainly OCD and anxiety. My OCD is worse than ever and I suspect I have DP... I certianly have many of the symptoms described.
The main ones are: hyper-awareness (sensorimotor OCD) of mind. I constantly monitor my mind to make sure it is working properly and that I understand things, constantly worrying I don't have insight into my mental state/ don't have mental clarity and can't put it into words, constantly worrying my subjective experience is different to everyone else's. All of my problems come from being too analytical. I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of thinking about thinking. I am basically aware of what healthy people never are. It is horrible and if I don't have DP/ DR I suspect I will soon. Looking back I have experienced it briefly on a couple of occasions during life. I have many existential worries and DP-type thoughts (where are my thoughts coming from, notice my subconscious a lot and realise I am noticing it and freak out, over-thinking speech, checking back on my thoughts, making sure I am thinking, I also experience: a lot of doubt, possible autism, emotional deprivation, possible alexithymia, emotional numbing due to meds, moral OCD, health OCD, previous adhd, social anxiety, depression, cognitive impairment/ brain fog. Any advice will be gratefully received and it's comforting to know I am not alone. I am obsessed with God, the nature of reality and the afterlife and also have many spiritual issues to add to the mix. Great.
The main ones are: hyper-awareness (sensorimotor OCD) of mind. I constantly monitor my mind to make sure it is working properly and that I understand things, constantly worrying I don't have insight into my mental state/ don't have mental clarity and can't put it into words, constantly worrying my subjective experience is different to everyone else's. All of my problems come from being too analytical. I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of thinking about thinking. I am basically aware of what healthy people never are. It is horrible and if I don't have DP/ DR I suspect I will soon. Looking back I have experienced it briefly on a couple of occasions during life. I have many existential worries and DP-type thoughts (where are my thoughts coming from, notice my subconscious a lot and realise I am noticing it and freak out, over-thinking speech, checking back on my thoughts, making sure I am thinking, I also experience: a lot of doubt, possible autism, emotional deprivation, possible alexithymia, emotional numbing due to meds, moral OCD, health OCD, previous adhd, social anxiety, depression, cognitive impairment/ brain fog. Any advice will be gratefully received and it's comforting to know I am not alone. I am obsessed with God, the nature of reality and the afterlife and also have many spiritual issues to add to the mix. Great.
