[¿No-Dip-Sherlock?]

Hey everyone,
I came here because I know I need help. It's like I don't even know what my personality is anymore. I'm not even a person, just a collection of sensory perceptions and the occasional automatic reaction. And it's weird because for the first time in a long time, I'm not suicidal and I have a lot that I want to do... in theory. In practice, it feels like I've taken over some random girl's life, and one day I'll wake up and be me again. I want to be myself and live and be happy, but I have no idea how to even begin because I have no idea who I am. I know activities I enjoy. I know places I want to visit. But I have no sense of self. How can someone live like this? This isn't life. This is a performance. It's taken me three years to acknowledge the problem but now I have no idea how to face it. Sorry for annoying everyone with the novel of a post. I just thought I would try writing about it to see if it helps.

 

[Natty1977]

Hiya, I can completely sympathise with your scary condition. I’m over 20 years with it now.
I am doing well in life, because I’m focused on my work, because I feel like half of me has died already, and I feel that I need to fulfill my financial, and emotional requirements to my 4 beautiful children. I feel like this is my only use.
I drive an Aston Martin, but it may aswell be a Ford escort. I would stay in the Hilton hotel, and it may aswell be a 1 star hotel in Bangladesh. I live in hope that my life will come back to me. I do it give up hope. Don’t you either! 😊😊😊

 

[sj1717]

Hey everyone,
I came here because I know I need help. It's like I don't even know what my personality is anymore. I'm not even a person, just a collection of sensory perceptions and the occasional automatic reaction. And it's weird because for the first time in a long time, I'm not suicidal and I have a lot that I want to do... in theory. In practice, it feels like I've taken over some random girl's life, and one day I'll wake up and be me again. I want to be myself and live and be happy, but I have no idea how to even begin because I have no idea who I am. I know activities I enjoy. I know places I want to visit. But I have no sense of self. How can someone live like this? This isn't life. This is a performance. It's taken me three years to acknowledge the problem but now I have no idea how to face it. Sorry for annoying everyone with the novel of a post. I just thought I would try writing about it to see if it helps.

hi you need to take it seriously and get a therapist , its hard but honestly talking about it helps

 

[leminaseri]

Hiya, I can completely sympathise with your scary condition. I’m over 20 years with it now.
I am doing well in life, because I’m focused on my work, because I feel like half of me has died already, and I feel that I need to fulfill my financial, and emotional requirements to my 4 beautiful children. I feel like this is my only use.
I drive an Aston Martin, but it may aswell be a Ford escort. I would stay in the Hilton hotel, and it may aswell be a 1 star hotel in Bangladesh. I live in hope that my life will come back to me. I do it give up hope. Don’t you either! 😊😊😊

reading something like this makes me so suicidal. its like, you can do everything, have a good wife, 4 kids, a good financial situation and work and still say things like „aston martin=ford escort, hilton=hotel in bangladesh“. so it is not worth it to push the fuck out of yourself and in the end youre still a depersonalized bastard. its so fucking lonely and sad i dont want to fight anymore

 

[Chip1021]

reading something like this makes me so suicidal. its like, you can do everything, have a good wife, 4 kids, a good financial situation and work and still say things like „aston martin=ford escort, hilton=hotel in bangladesh“. so it is not worth it to push the fuck out of yourself and in the end youre still a depersonalized bastard. its so fucking lonely and sad i dont want to fight anymore

I realize how awkward it was for me to “Like” this. So I feel I should clarify that I meant that to mean “I relate to this sentiment.”