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Hi, so I am a 14 year old boy, and have been recently getting the worst depersonalization attacks. Its just so weird. I feel that I am hyperaware, and feel like life is just too strange to be real. How is all this able to be possible? I am Christian but this doesn't seem to help. The only way it stops is if I get distracted, but then I snap right into what I don't want again. This always comes with anxiety.

This all started with one attack when I was 12. December 28. 2015. I had it really bad then, too, for like a month and it kind of drifted away.

Unfortunetely, it's back. I feel like "How are all these other people, my mom, dad, friends, how are they able to live their lives not just feeling like this? Isnt life just too strange?" I start to feel better here, and then when I'm walking in my house, I snap into these stupid thoughts. And I feel like I'm in a dream,like state or something. I feel like I am going crazy, I think. This is now, and this is me, and I cant even be distracted without realizing what I am going through. I seriously feel like it's some kind of torture.

How do I end this? Does it have to do with all the stress I've been going through? Not trying to sound like a "Woe is me" type of person, but is this enough to cause this?

In 6th grade, my best friend turned against me and so did so many other people. Long story short, I had almost no friends until October 2016, when I made a good one, but even now, the people that he's haning out with, don't even want to have anything to do with me. I don't even know why, I just know they don't.

So many people at school don't like me for some reason, and I'm not ugly or anything but I don't know. Ive never dated cause i dont really want to, but Ive lost a ton of items that mean a ton to me. I'm, always comparing myself to people, thinking I'm not good enough compared to them. I now know that I was being an idiot. I should be grateful for all I have, and Ive been switching from severe emetaphobia to this. Ive had emet since like 5th grade. I think now "Why can;'t I just get that back? Id choose that a million times over this"

I feel like I'm just rambling. but all I want is to just enjoy my life, fix my grades, I have 2 C's, but this always gets into the way. Please help
 

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You are not going crazy, I am 22 and I used to have the same issues as you when I was a kid. I had very little friends but the ones I had were good, was bullied and you know the story.

It gets better, I had anxiety from my childhood and that didn't let me make that many friends, but you will recover and live the life you've always dreamed of.

Just remember, it's normal to question reality, everyone does it, even if they say they don't! It is in our nature as humans to question everything, that's how we got to where we are, making spaceships and stuff.

Have you told your parents about this? You could find a counselor to help you deal with your issues better, and talking to someone who understands will help you very much.

Oh btw, I think we have the same first name :p
 

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Lol we might, my first name is Dorian

But Im feeling bad again right now. I just want to be normal again
 
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