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Hello :) My name is Kelly and I'm 28 years old. I've been suffering from derealization and depersonalization for the past 5 years now. It seems to have gotten drastically worse over the past year or so though. My father passed away two years ago, which caused me to be removed from my longtime home. I got pregnant a month after he died with a man I only knew for 2 months.. we moved into an apartment and have been here since. I got pregnant again only 6 months after my first, so now I have two very small children and I am alone all day with them as my boyfriend works long days. We often struggle to pay our bills. I have no friends so I have no one to speak to. So I basically just sit up here and dwell in my anxiety all day. I feel like I don't know where I am all the time. Like I don't recognize my apartment or the rooms or my kids or my boyfriend. I know who they are and where I am though.. I'll sometimes tell myself to tell me what's in my drawers in my kitchen to remind myself that I DO know where I am. My hands look funny to me, I panic in the shower because I become "super-aware", probably due to the constant stimulation of the water hitting me and the bright lights. I've become scared of going outside. I panic when I drive and when I'm in the supermarket. I get caught up in panic cycles worrying about crazy things like the sky. I make myself walk my dog every day though so the fear of the sky has sort of dwindled as I made myself realize there is no danger from it. I don't know. I just feel extremely disconnected from the world and everyone around me and it makes me very scared.
 

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Welcome.. I don't really know what to tell you or how to reply, but just saying Hello and that you can drop me a message, i've nothing really to suggest apart from what helps me, which is medication. DP is defiantly made worse by stress, having young kids must be a challenge also.. all you have talked about seems very typical. Have you ever tried anything medication wise for DP?
 

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Welcome.. I don't really know what to tell you or how to reply, but just saying Hello and that you can drop me a message, i've nothing really to suggest apart from what helps me, which is medication. DP is defiantly made worse by stress, having young kids must be a challenge also.. all you have talked about seems very typical. Have you ever tried anything medication wise for DP?
Hello! Yes, I take zoloft 50mg and I tried buspar but it made me feel weird so I stopped it. I take the zoloft because oddly enough, at around the same age my brother got the same symptoms as me. He felt like he was dreaming all the time, was afraid to be alone, feared going to sleep and always thought he was sick. He started zoloft and it helped him immensely, so I'm giving it a shot. Coincidentally, my brother and I also both had brain injuries. He was kicked in the head when he was 12 during basketball and had to have surgery, and when I was 12 I got meningitis.
 
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