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Hi my name is Steven (28 years old),
My first experience with what I think is DP is when I was a teen. I smoked weed for the first time and had a pretty traumatic experience where I thought I was dying. The next day I was at work when suddenly while talking to with coworkers I became hyperaware of everything around me. It suddenly felt so weird to speak/move. The following months I would spend my days constantly thinking about how strange I felt. I would walk around touching things to try to make a connection that I was 'actually here'. I felt like I was just watching a movie and I had no connection to the world around me. There were times where I would be driving and I would start having a panic attack because I felt so weird. I would have to pull over and there were times where I would work myself up so much I would vomit. For months after that I was sleeping all of the time in hopes that when I wake up I would feel "normal" again. I was prescribed effexor for depression symptoms.
My most recent bout with what I hope is DP explained below. I'm terrified because these symptoms are different from what I experienced before.
A few weeks ago I went through a weird breakup which caused me to lose the girl I was dating and the friend group I was associating with. The breakup hit me really hard because I felt like I lost everything and I was back at square one. After the breakup I was sitting on my couch watching tv when I became hyperaware once again. It suddenly felt so weird to take my dogs outside for a walk or to go to the grocery store because I just didn't 'feel all there'. I feel completely detached from everything around me, like the connection from my eyes to my brain is the only thing that is working. Like I can see everything happening around me, but my brain doesn't feel present. I started having panic attacks at work because it felt so weird to be in public. It's the worst when I'm sitting in a meeting and I find myself thinking "wow, I'm actually in this room I hope I don't have to speak".
I feel completely detached from everything around me. It feels like a piece of my brain "shut off" and isn't working anymore. I'm having memory problems where I can't remember much of what I did yesterday. I used to be able to recall most of a football game I was interested in, but I have trouble remembering the games I actually watched. I feel like my brain feeling 'shut off" and being detached from my surroundings is causing me to not hold on to memories because I'm not really experiencing them. The best I can describe the "shut off" feeling is I feel like nothing is going on in my head. Like if I were to sit down and meditate it would be easy because my mind doesn't wonder anymore. I feel like I'm on autopilot like the only reason I get up from a restless night of sleep to go to work is because I've been doing the same routine forever.
The most troubling thing I've been experiencing is I started having fragmented sleep patterns where I will wake up basically every hour on the hour. This has caused me to think it maybe something different from DP. My GP prescribed me ambien (still had sleep problems) and now i'm on seroquel which worked for a couple weeks, but I'm back to having sleep issues.
I'm terrified that It could be some form of Alzheimer's and I'm only 28. I'm really scared to post this because I'm afraid something is seriously wrong with me.
My first experience with what I think is DP is when I was a teen. I smoked weed for the first time and had a pretty traumatic experience where I thought I was dying. The next day I was at work when suddenly while talking to with coworkers I became hyperaware of everything around me. It suddenly felt so weird to speak/move. The following months I would spend my days constantly thinking about how strange I felt. I would walk around touching things to try to make a connection that I was 'actually here'. I felt like I was just watching a movie and I had no connection to the world around me. There were times where I would be driving and I would start having a panic attack because I felt so weird. I would have to pull over and there were times where I would work myself up so much I would vomit. For months after that I was sleeping all of the time in hopes that when I wake up I would feel "normal" again. I was prescribed effexor for depression symptoms.
My most recent bout with what I hope is DP explained below. I'm terrified because these symptoms are different from what I experienced before.
A few weeks ago I went through a weird breakup which caused me to lose the girl I was dating and the friend group I was associating with. The breakup hit me really hard because I felt like I lost everything and I was back at square one. After the breakup I was sitting on my couch watching tv when I became hyperaware once again. It suddenly felt so weird to take my dogs outside for a walk or to go to the grocery store because I just didn't 'feel all there'. I feel completely detached from everything around me, like the connection from my eyes to my brain is the only thing that is working. Like I can see everything happening around me, but my brain doesn't feel present. I started having panic attacks at work because it felt so weird to be in public. It's the worst when I'm sitting in a meeting and I find myself thinking "wow, I'm actually in this room I hope I don't have to speak".
I feel completely detached from everything around me. It feels like a piece of my brain "shut off" and isn't working anymore. I'm having memory problems where I can't remember much of what I did yesterday. I used to be able to recall most of a football game I was interested in, but I have trouble remembering the games I actually watched. I feel like my brain feeling 'shut off" and being detached from my surroundings is causing me to not hold on to memories because I'm not really experiencing them. The best I can describe the "shut off" feeling is I feel like nothing is going on in my head. Like if I were to sit down and meditate it would be easy because my mind doesn't wonder anymore. I feel like I'm on autopilot like the only reason I get up from a restless night of sleep to go to work is because I've been doing the same routine forever.
The most troubling thing I've been experiencing is I started having fragmented sleep patterns where I will wake up basically every hour on the hour. This has caused me to think it maybe something different from DP. My GP prescribed me ambien (still had sleep problems) and now i'm on seroquel which worked for a couple weeks, but I'm back to having sleep issues.
I'm terrified that It could be some form of Alzheimer's and I'm only 28. I'm really scared to post this because I'm afraid something is seriously wrong with me.