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having severe existenial intrusive thoughts pls help

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Hey guys Im 19 yrs old I'm athletic and artistic. A few months a back i had a bad panic attack which led to depression and eventually existential thoughts. I don't think have dp but its been hard to let go of these existential thoughts. Im religious but at the same time for some reason i keep sweating the idea of solipsism i wonder what this is this because my perception of reality is all i know i wonder if the people around me are in the same moment or if they even exist i know that sounds crazy but i don't believe it the idea just bothers me very much. I also wonder if I'm in a simulation because i read that elon musk thought it was a possibility. And that makes me a little uneasy because i can't prove it. When i think deeply everything starts to seem absurd like how did i land up on this planet in the middle of the universe. Its fascinating butt at the same time it bothers me sometimes and makes it harder to engage in certain things like working out and playing sports things which i used to enjoy tremendously. It bothers me because i wonder if I'm sharing the experience with other people i just want to know that for sure. I even wonder if life is a dream rather than reality it freaks me out. If that makes sense at all can u guys please give me advice to get through this. Im very ambitious and i want to help other people. I just need someone to help guide me through this phase. It just bothers me for whatever reason. I believe in god but for some reason I can't let go of these thoughts. I think about the cosmos, philosophy, all types of irrational thoughts and it just gives me anxiety can someone please help guide me through this. Its like all of sudden Ive realized these things, it sucks because this stuff didn't bother me before but now it consumes me. any advice or coaching would be much appreciated. Its like i can't change my train of thought I find myself spinning wheels on this stuff almost all day only to discover something new that bothers me. Ive been dealing with these thoughts for a couple months now I just want peace of mind so I can just move on. The more i think about this stuff the more absurd it all gets. pls help sometimes i feel like I'm on the verge of convincing my self of an irrational philosophy
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I promise you that you’re not alone with this. I’m 32 but my first bought of solipsism and existential meltdowns started when I was around your age... a panic attack can actually put your body in flight mode making you feel disconnected which may have triggered this for you. I’ve had many good years, but once in awhile something will trigger a bad enough panic attack and I go through this phase again (I had a traumatic delivery with my baby this time around. Thought I was dying) the only thing I can say is first to distract when you feel this way, which I know is easier said than done. Also, I say things to myself like “I’m the same person I’ve always known to be in the same world I’ve known I’ve lived in so just keep going...” also occhams razor which pretty much says the most simple answer is usually the right one. Most likely this reality is what it seems. But I know it’s scary. You will get through it!
Anytime you need to talk feel free to message me.
That’s exactly it, apparently we are thinking too deep. Sometimes I say to my husband “how is everyone not freaking out over this weird human existence” and he was like we just live instead. He said I get stuck in the questioning where others don’t. I know it is because I have OCD and panic disorder. But I’ve been terrified of this in the past and got through. It will happen again.
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