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This is an odd one. So in recent months I have found myself doing things that would have been impossible before. But this has been a mind fuck for me in itself because I feel like I haven't tried to get better, because it's been physically impossible to try. But yet I am definitely different now to a few months ago.
It just happened automatically. I didn't push myself to do things etc. It's leading me to believe that I am just an automaton. I am just watching things happen. I feel like I'm not making myself do things, somebody else is. Case in point, I still have trouble believing I'm not in some sort of fiction, yet I'm watching myself interact with things. Why would I interact with things and people who aren't really there? At this point I really do feel as if I am just watching someone else.
Thoughts?
It just happened automatically. I didn't push myself to do things etc. It's leading me to believe that I am just an automaton. I am just watching things happen. I feel like I'm not making myself do things, somebody else is. Case in point, I still have trouble believing I'm not in some sort of fiction, yet I'm watching myself interact with things. Why would I interact with things and people who aren't really there? At this point I really do feel as if I am just watching someone else.
Thoughts?
