Finally! I thought no one else in the world ever had these terrifying thoughts. I've searched under panic attacks and it never quite fit although they happened. I've researched children's fears and was always led to the topic of night terrors. I've seen psychiatrists who did not understand although one ventured a guess that I was stifling my psychic abilities. At age 63 I find the answer I have been looking for since I was 4. I'm not alone.
