[anti-anti depressants]

Can anyone relate to this?

I stopped taking Anti-Depressants about 4 months ago. I've been on them since I was 21 and am now 26. I have found that my memory keeps taking me back to when I was'nt taking them which sort of makes me feel as If I havent grown up. The last five years have been a bit of a blur.

It also feels as If I have been sleeping for the last 5 years and someone has just woken me up.

Sorry if you dont understand this. I dont understand myself half of the time.

 

[Scattered]

I've never been on meds. But I understand the feeling of not living, of realizing that yeras have gone by and you feel as if you've gotten nowhere. I'm 19 but feel as if I am the same person I was at 15.

 

[moonDust]

Since i'm DPed, i always get "feelings" from my childhood, i'm seeing my home as i used to see it as a kid, and in many other places, "feelings" that i haven't felt for years and forgot about them.

Hard to explain...

 

[M A R S]

I have been seeing the past to, All kinds of shit. I see my self as a kid, or when i was 24.. and its amazing how much time has gone by.

 

[Scattered]

Yeah that feeling starts to scare me . I've been having these thoughts lately that are something like this:

"One day I'm going to be 80 years old, im 19 now but years and then decades will go by faster and faster and one day I'll be 80 and then I'll be dead."

Sometimes I start to feel as if my life is already over. I might as well be 80 right now this second. Because the way I live feel and think its as if I'm in a time warp. No matter how slow or fast time goes by I always catch myself one day and start to think. I realize that weeks or months have gone by and I feel EXACTLY the same. Time is moving and I'm not changing. I feel like I'm a slave to time that moves relentlessly forward swallowing my youth but never offering me peace or happiness in return.

 

[Guest]

aahhh yes, the "time factor"...
For me, the biggest part of my DP is TIME. I can sit down to work on a project, then when I least expect it I'll look at the time and realize that HOURS have gone by!! I have had DP for over 2 years now and recently after a life long relationship with clocks and watches...I finally have given up on the time "thing". In fact, I have quit wearing a watch all together, because for me, time has become meaningless. I do believe that fact is stranger than fiction.

Tony

 

[Guest]

i can relate somewhat, all of this happened when i was 18, and im 20 now, and the last two years have seem to have gone by very fast. Sometimes i still feel like im a senior in High School even though im in my third semester of college.

 

[Andy T]

Hi Anti-Anti,

I understand completely.. It's so difficult to explain, but I often feel that my childhood memories are way further back in time than they actually were or wonder whether they actually happened at all.

As Dreamer said on her website, I feel there is no 'depth' to my existence - Memories and experiences seem abstract to me now, like when you try to recall a dream after waking up..

Andy