[kmoves]

have suffered from this my whole life, im 25 now. dont really know what it is. nothing feels real, and im at the point where i wonder if this is just what life is like.
when i really focus on being "there" and not a lot is going on, i faintly feel like im alive and i get dizzy and it almost feels like my soul slips back in my body.
i grew up in a fucked up home, so maybe trauma caused this.
i wanna start finally getting help for this

the advice i mostly see is that i should just live my life and ignore it. i did, for years now. it didnt do anything for me.

im currently smoking weed, cut way back, only like 3 joints a week now, but i had it for 21 years before i ever started smoking.

i grew up in a very fucked up household, so im wondering if its trauma related. i never really had a moment where i felt "awake", or like its gone, only for a short moment its that feeling you have in a dream when youre realizing youre in a dream. i also get that sometimes when getting up quick and stretching, so i thought it might be bloodflow related. got an MRI a while ago, but i was told everything is normal. people say its anxiety, but i dont really feel anxious when i go out. i meditate every day too, and that never makes it better either. it gets worse when im low on sleep though.

i finally beat depression last summer after a decade of struggling, now i want to beat this. i wasted 25 years on earth with this shit, i dont want to lose the rest of my life to this. please help me guys.

 

[santi123]

Hello,

Im sorry about your past history. The only advice I could give you is not to smoke weed. Cannabis amplifies emotions, makes you feel euphoric or depressed x10 and considering that you suffer from past trauma, the withdrawals from cannabis is just a huge amount of stress and anxiety.

My DP/DR was triggered due to cannabis intake in 2018.

I hope you get to feel better.

Best,
Santi.

 

[kmoves]

hello,

ive quit for multiple months, and i never ever saw even a slight decrease in DR. im willing to quit again if it helps. but ive had this long before i ever touched a joint. i dont know what to do anymore. i see no way out any more.

just ignoring it hasnt helped either. i was down bad in life and turned everything around. everything is going great right now on the outside, even my depression is gone. but life still isnt real. i dont know what to do anymore. im starting to think its physical. please help me

 

[Cedric]

Hey and welcome,

There is not a lot of advice I can give to someone who has suffered for so long, except that you are obviously making steps forward to a healthier mind since you managed to beat depression.

Find a good psychiatrist and therapist if possible, and work with them. Also don't give up.

Hope you can get better soon.