[dpsucks]

I know many of us on here say it's usually just the short term that's bad. I know I used to say that or at least feel that way too. However I've noticed that even my long term, like autobiographical memory (such as childhood memories), is also affected. Does anyone else experience this?

 

[KittyKitten]

Not really. In fact, my DP/DR causes me to want to look back to make sure I remember things, which I do. However, I will say that being in this state, I often question if memories are real or actually happened. Then the existential questioning comes up "what creates memories? Why do we have memories? Etc"

What I will say is back when I dealt with this when I was 17....well, basically my memories of those 5 months of DP/DR are strong. If you were to ask me what I did on Christmas 2013 when I had no DP/DR at all, I couldn't tell you. If you asked me what I did on March 17th on a Tuesday at so-and-so time when I was 17 and dealing with DP/DR, I can recall most everything. I think when we're in this state, we're a lot more aware and conscious than we give ourselves credit for.

As for you, it could be that you're focused so much on memories that they begin to look a bit jargled. I believe a lot of us with DP/DR are simply too focused on what's in our head at any given moment and it amplifies our fears and thoughts.