I can't vote as there isn't a question that fits me. I have been close to suicide four times in my life.
1. Age 28 I was planning on dying at 30. Planned out to the last detail. I was given Klonopn and did not wish to die.
2. Late 30s ... very suicidal ... more likely from my clinical depression and no change in my DP/DR. Unable to pursue my career.
3. Age 52, after breast cancer. Did not know if I could deal with all of that and the DP/DR, etc.
4. Last winter, after my 56th birthday. Again, I think it was clinical depression and DP combined -- hopelessness about the future.
When I come out of these episodes I wonder, "How could I have been thinking that?" There IS a change in how you think. Serious suicidal thinking needs immediate attention.
I am glad I never took action. However I fear as I get older .. how will I deal with the challenges of age AND DP/DR?
No clue. But I force myself to reach out for help. I also go on a "minute by minute" basis. "If I can survive this moment, I go on to the next." Or "this day." These episodes can last 5 months at a time.
Some individuals do not have clinical depression with DP/DR, but I think feel suicidal with a chronic condition of any kind -- if it is severly limiting. Depends on the person. Everyone is unique, and has different issues that can occur with DP/DR or not. Also, for me, I have never had a real family. I have sort of given up on a close relationship with a man. Very depressing for me. But I try to live only in the present. Best one can do. And make the most of it.