BRO this toplayer "why cant i be present" shit is basically exactly why my DR has been so bad for the last 4 yeras or so.
Even back in the day when i never cared about DR, when i started obsessing over it, this is pretty much what happens.
Trying to stop the spacing out which creates tension/waves and thus even more spacing out.
For me there is also anxiety attatched to not being present, which makes it potentially harder to accept it and remove the toplayer.
But anyways, crazy relatable the whole interview
Even back in the day when i never cared about DR, when i started obsessing over it, this is pretty much what happens.
Trying to stop the spacing out which creates tension/waves and thus even more spacing out.
For me there is also anxiety attatched to not being present, which makes it potentially harder to accept it and remove the toplayer.
But anyways, crazy relatable the whole interview