I used to have intrusive thoughts. I remember watching an early SNL (Saturday Night Live) skit on TV, and one of the characters said he had ideas to drive his vehicle into oncoming traffic.
I remember thinking how odd that was, because I was having intrusive thoughts about that. I thought to myself...there must be something to this, and I wondered who I could talk to about it.
I don't remember having intrusive thoughts about murder. I would think things like "throw your coffee in his face" or something similarly stupid and embarrassing. I never acted on any of these
thoughts. At some point, I realized my intellect had executive control over these thoughts, and I needn't fear acting them out. I made an analogy to an upset stomach that causes burps and gas.
I surmised that the random idea generator in my brain had become upset, and was formulating inappropriate ideas. I can't remember exactly when I stopped having intrusive thoughts. It may have
been following the ECT I had over a decade ago.. I had a lot of strange symptoms with my depressive illness over 40 years. The extreme insomnia I experienced added to my symptoms. Many of the symptoms didn't seem to be connected in any way. But, the ECT resolved them all. All I have left is a mild head tremor, and the occasional migraine aura. I've been relatively depression and anxiety free for over a decade.and I haven't taken psych meds during that time..
I remember thinking how odd that was, because I was having intrusive thoughts about that. I thought to myself...there must be something to this, and I wondered who I could talk to about it.
I don't remember having intrusive thoughts about murder. I would think things like "throw your coffee in his face" or something similarly stupid and embarrassing. I never acted on any of these
thoughts. At some point, I realized my intellect had executive control over these thoughts, and I needn't fear acting them out. I made an analogy to an upset stomach that causes burps and gas.
I surmised that the random idea generator in my brain had become upset, and was formulating inappropriate ideas. I can't remember exactly when I stopped having intrusive thoughts. It may have
been following the ECT I had over a decade ago.. I had a lot of strange symptoms with my depressive illness over 40 years. The extreme insomnia I experienced added to my symptoms. Many of the symptoms didn't seem to be connected in any way. But, the ECT resolved them all. All I have left is a mild head tremor, and the occasional migraine aura. I've been relatively depression and anxiety free for over a decade.and I haven't taken psych meds during that time..
