So I went to this honors banquet tonight, and got some rewards, etc for school. I'm one of these people that when I have to do social things, when I come home I need time to "unwind", sort of recharge myself. I was really excited and had a good time and was proud and all but it was like I was so excited that I got anxious. And ever since I've been home I've been really nervous. Anyway, next week is graduation and I'm contemplating not walking. And it pisses me off because this is my college graduation and I'm graduating with honors and of course my family wants to see me graduate, but I'm afraid I'll get nervous and have a panic attack. What is wrong with me?? I'm used to missing out on parts of my life due to panic disorder, but it just makes me mad. It's not really the panic attack that bothers me. It's that when I have one, it takes me a month to recover. How does everyone else deal with these things, because I know I'm not the only one watching my life pass me by. 
