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I've been suffering from DP/DR for 2 and a half years now. My Dp/dr began during the summer before my junior year in 2016 from a bad drug experience. I had all sorts of symptoms since it all began, so many that came and went that I can't remember most of it. There's too many symptoms to list and describe but some of the more severe symptoms I still have are blank mind, not having an inner voice, emotional numbness, immediately forgetting information, feeling like I'm still high on shrooms, etc. These are always there 24/7. I also have hppd symptoms like blurry visions, seeing faces and distortions in random things like clouds, cars, carpets and whatever. I feel like I'm on a different reality and the world looks and feels alien. Despite all the crap, I wouldn't consider this to be the worse things I've gone through in life. Unfortunately months after getting dp/dr I also started suffering from blaring tinnitus and partial hearing loss that has made life a complete hell. Loss hearing in both my ears from headphone use and being in loud environments. It sucks because even if I eventually stop suffering from all the psychological symptoms I currently have, I'll still have to live with loud noises in my ears and not being able to hear probably.

Anyway, back to what this thread is about. Despite everything I've been dealing with over the years, my life do have a semblance of normalcy. With all the challenges that came from this mess, I've managed to graduate from uni with a degree in finance while also holding various part time jobs. School, work, and socializing, these helped me felt like there was still purpose and meaning in life. I hardly feel any sense of enjoyment in anything I do but it keeps me grounded and busy and sometimes that's all that matters.

None of this would be possible if it wasn't for the decision to stop thinking like I'm suffering from something. I decided at some point to just own it and accept that everything that's happening was now a part of my life and I can either suck it up or fall into a pit of despair and self pity. I hope this post encourages you to keep moving forward and strive for whatever is going to give you a sense of meaning and normalcy. Your life isn't over, you just have to keep moving forward and keep yourself grounded and busy with things. It's not going to be easy but what other choice do you have?
 

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your post hit me and you’re right... we can’t just sit there and let this shit consume us... it sucks, but we don’t have any other choice but to try and move on... this shit has been holding me back from living my life! I’m 20 years old! I should be enjoying my life... me thinking about it and letting it consume me isn’t going to make it any better. congrats on graduating college by the way!
 

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dont you feel like you're on "automatic" when ignoring dp and just trying to live life? like if its not you the one controlling you and youre just an spectator.
because i havent found a way to not feel like that and just feel like i'm in my body (idk if it makes sense)
 
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yes ali3n! I know exactly what you’re talking about! It feels like you’re snapping into this mode. hard to explain, but I know what you mean and I hate it because It feels like it’s not you!
 
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