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Nice that you got reassurance of not having schitzo and can maybe put your mind to rest now

Also you have a good doctor if he wasnt immediately prescribing antipsychotics to you, they can do some massive and unreversible (negative) changes in your brain.

Im s**t scared to start eating ssri's again but I think its ahead cos somehow I need to get out of this limbo. Citalopram did wonders for my anxiety earlier, I hope the zoloft will make wonders for you too!

If you dont have any benzos, ask the doctor to prescribe them to you so If you get some starting anxiety from the drug you can sometimes take a small amount of something that will calm you down!

If I remember (which I probably wont) I'll ask you later how the zoloft is working if you dont make a thread about it!

 

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Yeah, funny thing is that I cant really put my mind to rest. I always have the thing in the back of my mind reminding me of all things that I have thought, seen, experienced etc. My doc doesn't know the whole deal because a lot of the stuff I brush off as just being thoughts and pseudo hallucinations etc. I always know whats real and what isn't even if it takes a sec to figure it out.

Can I ask why you got off of celexa?

I fully understand what you mean, It doesent really matter how much my psychiatrist says that I dont have schitzo (well.. said before I told her about my delusions ) I still think I do.. I had emetophobia (fear of throwing up) for almost a decade starting when I was 8 so I think that my fear of schitzo will be with me for many years even if I dont have it, I have the tendency to get phobias.

I stopped eating citalopram (sepram here) cos at first I kinda forgot to take the meds for like few days. Then I realized that I sleep so much better without them and I had had problems with my sexlife when eating it and the problems always disappeared when I took few days break from it. Also it wasnt working so well as it did in the start so I decided to quit once and for all, a decision I now regret.

I have started to understand that if I ever find ssri/antidepressant that works again, I will probably eat it for the rest of my life, or atleast I wont stop if my life hasnt been smooth sailing for atleast few years and Im working/socializing alot.

Why did you stop eating the zoloft?

Im so sorry your mother died in od :/