It's weird, today actually feels sort of normal. Occasionally im getting existential terror thoughts but they're not lasting for hours. I don't feel like I'm spiraling down today. I slept great, I'm eating fine today, and it's the first time in a month I've felt any sort of normalcy in my life. I hope this lasts. It's depressing to know that it probably won't but i'd like to try and enjoy it as much as I can for right now. I hope this lasts.