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Discussion Starter · #1 ·
These are the Lyrics to the song Iris, I caught the lyrics to what im going through, ill underline them for you
Iris

And I?d give up forever to touch you
?cause I know that you feel me somehow
You?re the closest to heaven that i?ll
Ever be
And I don?t want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life

?cause sooner or later it?s over
I just don?t want to miss you tonight

And I don?t want the world to see me
?cause I don?t think that they?d
Understand

When everything?s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can?t fight the tears that ain?t
Coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you?re alive


And I don?t want the world to see me
?cause I don?t think that they?d
Understand
When everything?s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don?t want the world to see me
?cause I don?t think that they?d
Understand
When everything?s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don?t want the world to see me
?cause I don?t think that they?d
Understand
When everything?s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Can anyone relate ?[/u]
 
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goo goo dolls......possibly - i can relate to this a little easier

Radiohead - How to Disappear Completely



That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Elliott Smith - Bottle Up and Explode



Bottle up and explode over and over keep the troublemaker below
Put it away and check out for the day
And in for a round of overexposure
The thing mother nature provides to get up and go
Bottle up and explode seeing the stars surrounding you
Red white and blue
You look and him like you've never known him
But i know for a fact that you have
The last time you cried who'd you think was inside?
Thinking that you were about to come over
But i'm tired now of waiting for you
You never show
Bottle up and go, if you're gonna hide it's up to you
I'm coming through
Bottle up and go, i can make it outside
I'll get though becoming you
Becoming you
Becoming you
 

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wow, I never thought song writers (who ever they may be-singer, band member, another person) would know how to put it in words but man, did they. Good job. Lets try and find more songs that have a common theme: DP I wounder how many songs there really is out there that I know that I never thought of to be about what we are going through. :D Wow.

Thanks for bringing that up.
 
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Yeah, particularly the last song by Elliott Smith has an uncanny resemblance to how I feel. Its really strange how hopeful and beautiful that song sounds to me. I think you DPers should download that song. Its not exactly one of the "slit-your-wrist" songs he does.
 

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Radiohead "How to Disapperar Completely"? is that the name of the song? i'll have to download it and listen to it. Thanx
 
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I first heard that song over 2 years ago when I first started experiencing DP. What a mind blowing tune! I also heard it live when I saw them down in Houston in 03.





I am getting kinda sick of pink floyd after listening to them non stop for 2 years, but the one song that will never get old is "Echoes." I challenge you to find a more DPed song than that.
 
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I already gave the best two I could think of. I would, but i'm going to go make myself some spaghetti at 3 am. My life is a bit peculiar lately.
 

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The radiohead song how to dissapear completly is the immediate song tha tcomes to mind when i think aabout a song that makes me think of dp, was listening to it yesterday actually

Spinning plates by radiohead also reminds me of dp

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While you make pretty speeches,
I'm being cut to shreds.
You feed me to the lions,
a delicate balance

When this just feels like spinning plates.
I'm living in cloud cuckoo land.
And this just feels like spinning plates
Our bodies floating down the muddy river.
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Another song that reminds me of dp/dr is lost souls by joy division , as a lot of songs by joy division remind me of drp/dr due to the often macabre themes prelevent within the bands music, this one reminds me of dp though specifically because of the lines in bold

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Someone take these dreams away
That point me to another day
A duel of personalities
That stretch all true reality

And keep calling me
They keep calling me
Keep on calling me
They keep calling me

When figures from the past stand tall
And mocking voices ring the hall
Imperialistic house of prayer
Conquistadores who took
their share
And keep calling me
They keep calling me
Keep on calling me
They keep calling me

Calling me, calling me (2)
They keep calling me
Keep on calling me
The keep calling me (2)
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Also a song called falling free (origin of my name on here) which is a curve remix by aphex twin, it has no lyrics but is an electronic dark ambient piece that reminds me of the feeling of falling into a dp/dr state due to the ghostly sounds and the dark nature of the electronic noises and skitty drum beats that aphex uses on the remix.
 

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I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself

In the head of this stranger in love
Holding on given up
To another under faded setting sun
And I wonder where I am...
Could she run away with him?
So happy and so young
And I stare
As I sing in the lost voice of a stranger in love
Out of time letting go

In another world that spins around for fun
And I wonder where I am...
Could he ever ask her why?
So happy and so young...
And I stare... But...

I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself

In the heart of this stranger in love
Holding on given up
To this other under faded setting sun
And I'm not sure where I am...
Would he really turn away?
So happy and so young...
And I stare...

As I play out the passion of a stranger in love
Letting go of the time
In this other world that spins around for one
And I'm not sure where I am...
Would she know it was a lie?
So happy and so young...
And I stare... But...

I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself

In the soul of this stranger in love
No control over one
To the other under faded setting sun
And I don't know where I am...
Should he beg her to forgive?
So happy and so young...
And I stare...

As I live out the story of a stranger in love
Waking up going on
In the other world that spins around undone
And I don't know where I am...
Should she really say goodbye?
So happy and so young
And I stare... But...

I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I got lost in someone else.

(at the beginning of the song its sung in the typical disenchanted Rob style, but gets angrier and angrier and by the end the "i cant find myself" is screamed in a really pissed off way. it totally captures the frustrations of DP)
 

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U2-MIRACLE DRUG

I WANT TO TRIP INSIDE YOUR HEAD
SPEND THE DAY THERE....
TO HEAR THE THINGS YOU HAVENT SAID
AND SEE WHAT YOU MIGHT SEE

I WANT TO HEAR YOU WHEN YOU CALL
DO YOU FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL?
I WANT TO SEE YOUR THOUGHTS TAKE SHAPE
AND WALK RIGHT OUT

FREEDOM HAS A SCENT
LIKE THE TOP OF A NEW BORN BABYS HEAD

YHE SONGS ARE IN YOUR EYES
I SEE THEM WHEN YOU SMILE
IVE HAD ENOUGH IM NOT GIVING UP
ON A MIRACLE DRUG

OF SCIENCE AND THE HUMAN HEART
THERE IS NO LIMIT
THERE IS NO FAILURE HERE SWEETHEART
JUST WHEN YOU QUIT...

I AM YOU AND YOU ARE MINE
LOVE MAKES NONSENSE OF SPACE
AND TIME..WILL DISAPPEAR
LOVE AND LOGIC KEEP US CLEAR
REASON IS ON OUR SIDE,LOVE...

THE SONGS ARE IN YOUR EYES
ISEE THEM WHEN YOU SMILE
IVE HAD ENOUGH OF ROMANTIC LOVE
ID GIVE IT UP,YEAH ID GIVE IT UP
FOR A MIRACLE, AMIRACLE DRUG, A MIRACLE DRUG

GOD I NEED YOUR HELP TONIGHT

BENEATH THE NOISE
BELOW THE DIN
I HEAR A VOICE
ITS WHISPERING
IN SCIENCE AND IN MEDICINE
"I WAS A STRANGER
YOU TOOK ME IN"

THE SONGS ARE IN YOUR EYES
ISEE THEM WHEN YOU SMILE
IVE HAD ENOUGH OF ROMANTIC LOVE
ID GIVE IT UP,YEAH ID GIVE IT UP
FOR A MIRACLE, MIRACLE DRUG

MIRACLE, MIRACLE DRUG
 
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Discussion Starter · #11 ·
Also a song called falling free (origin of my name on here) which is a curve remix by aphex twin, it has no lyrics but is an electronic dark ambient piece that reminds me of the feeling of falling into a dp/dr state due to the ghostly sounds and the dark nature of the electronic noises and skitty drum beats that aphex uses on the remix.
Heh, I immediately put in 26 Mixes for Cash after I read that. At the risk of sounding like a hippy...IDM music like Aphex Twin, Amon Tobin, Squarepusher, BOC all plays into whatever rhythm is inside of my head. Falling free is an excellent track. The Tracheus Kinesthesia mix is another one that just has this perfect trippy, industrial sound to it that I can totally get inside of the song in a very dp kind of way.
 

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Yeh I am also a very big fan of the 'IDM' genre of music , my fascination with this kind of music started when I first heard aphex twins come to daddy and I can remeber what the hell this is unlike anything of ever heard, as it sounds like a combination of dum and bass, metal and industrial all rolled into one, I think the video is genius as well. I then discovered other artists in the progressive elctronic genre such as BOC , and autechre and it has now become one of my favioute genres of music because it sounds unlike anything else other people are performing though the influence of various other styles of music can be be heard, I also like how with an artist like aphex he has a variety of charecters and styles of music that he develops and makes, Like for example an an album he might have a track that sounds like it comes out of the mind of some scitzopheinc maniac with screaming and massive drum beats and nasty sounds, then he will have a really innocent sounding song with lovely sweeping melodies and crisp beats, this kind of vareity of production and style in his song I think marks him out as a true artist and I think this is a big reason why I identfy with this kind of music, because I myself tend to swing in mood all the time and it's nice to have a group of artists , a genre of music that can accomadate this , while still being progressive and sounding fresh and original.
 
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Richard D James is THE musical genious of this era as far as i'm concerned. Come to Daddy is what turned me on to him a few years or so ago (also turned me onto director Chris Cunningham). I love to listen to an album that has such beautiful melodies like Flim, IZ-US, or Avril 14th, and then jump into a nightmarish drill and bass song like on of those incomprehensible titles on drukqs. Somehow, despite the rapid acid beats and total madness of some of his tracks, I feel totally calm. IDM is so timeless because the layers are sometimes so thick, you need to listen to it over and over to pick up the random beats, soundbytes you might have missed.

Listening to Aphex might be a chore for some people, but i've developed the listening capacity for such music. BOC, Brain Eno, and Aphex ambient has been my current obsession of late though...as I need to calm my nerves a bit around finals time.
 

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IDM is so timeless because the layers are sometimes so thick, you need to listen to it over and over to pick up the random beats, soundbytes you might have missed.
i also like IDM for this same reason, everytime I listen i gain new insight into the structure, I hear new sounds that on an intial listen I didin't hear etc etc, it is because of this I think that some IDM (the more ambient sided stuff) is very much like the classical music of the past because when you lsiten to that there are many layers , the music is sometimes complex etc etc and most classical music takes you on a journey somewhere, very much like IDM does.
 

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To The Hilt by Die Krupps, lyrics: Engler, Buck

woke up - still in the dream
nothing's the same
can't pronounce my name
I open my mouth
words come out
that make no sense
for a stranger's ear
in a foreign language
in a foreign land
now I'm an alien
on a different planet
it makes it clear - I understand
we are all strangers - in a foreign land

burn the bridges
forge ahead
to the hilt

back home I feel insane
nothing's the same
except for my name
I open my mouth
words come out
that make no sense
for my lover's ear
in my native language
in my native land
I'm still the alien
on a different planet
it makes it clear - I understand
I am a stranger - in my own land

burn the bridges
forge ahead
to the hilt

Odyssey of the Mind by Die Krupps, lyrics: Engler, Engler

sitting in a cage
an open cage
you're used to its measures
used to the way it feels
it gives you security
and eases your anxiety
the fear of the unknown
the fear to be all alone
the desire to leave home
the nightmare of being torn

I set my mind on something
I would like to be
and I open up the door
there is so much to explore
I set my mind on things
that I would like to see
and I open up the door
there is so much more to score

I sure could leave this cell
but I don't
I should leave this hell
but I won't
there is only one way out of this
it is to travel by mind - noiseless
the body is trapped but the mind soars free
the body is caged but the mind soars free

By the way, Die Krupps is a German industrial heavy band... *advertisement* :)
 
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Masta Ace- Revelations- off of the album LONG HOT SUMMER

[Verse One]
At times I don't know who I be
And when I look in the mirror its like I don't know who I see
Am I even moving at all?
Cuz I swear I can't tell if my life is improving at all
Every time I got a pen in my hand
I forget every time before that one has been in my hand
And I write for the moment, get it tight how I want it
Get the right lawyer on it cuz I might wanna own it
I tussle and I fight, I hustle and I write
I struggle every night with every muscle in my might
I'm in this rap race trying to eat the cheese
But y'all don't know my name like Alicia Keys
My face ain't familiar, neither is my music
If shit don't soon change I'll be the one to lose it
I drink a little liquor tryin' to heal my nerves
Cuz y'all don't listen ,hear, and feel my words
But something's wrong with y'all, ain't nuttin' wrong with me
And happy in my life is what I long to be
And happy in my life is what I'm gonna be
What you see in me is what I was born to be
From the day that my moms first birthed a child
She didn't need the world to make it worth the while
So I don't need no magazine to reach the pinnacle
Screw a review and you can eat the interview
Cuz that's what y'all seem to tend to do
Them cats you cover all seem identical
Through it all I weave like the Parker's hair
And shine underground cuz it's darkest there

[Chorus]
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin' the song
But yall aint listenin
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin' the song
But yall aint listenin
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin' the song
But yall aint listenin
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin' the song

[Verse Two]
Y'all industry ****** should be feeling ashamed
Y'all like "he ain't still in the game, we stealing the name"
Oh wait just a sec that's straight disrespect
Take shit and jet and don't be late with the check
I'm on the underground trying to scrape and scrounge
And sure it feel good to take a break and lounge
All these ups and downs like a roller coaster
Life is a bitch I'm trying to hold her closer
I'm killin' every ***** in sight
The bigger the dog, the bigger the fight
If you really say you know me then you'd figured I might
Try to use my anger as a trigger to write
I put it down simple on the paper or pad
Try to take a stab at what is making me mad
I jump on the track and I ride it through
And do it for the people that are tried and true
But y'all so fickle y'all love me today
And tomorrow love another cat and shove me away
But most ain't committed to do it how I did it
In the way that I did it, in the way that I spit it
It's like my burst of truth and it might hurt the booth
But first the proof, it gave birth to youth
Rap's like trying to take a piss in the wind
I'm just glad to know that some of y'all are listenin' in

[Chorus]
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin' the song
But yall aint listenin
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin' the song
But yall aint listenin
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin' the song
But yall aint listenin
Keep movin' along, keep bringin' it on, and keep singin'
 

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how to dissapear completely is the only song ive heard that makes me sit up and think 'this is deffinately about dp'
the story behind the song goes that thom yorke was talking to michael stipe and asking him how he copes with all the pressures of fame and michael stipe just told him 'to pull down the shutters and dissapear'
considering thim yoke suffers from depression it wouldnt be surpsrising if he did have dp
 
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I recall somebody at the old forum saying that Thom suffers from DP and that he visits this website? I suspect he may be disguising himself as soulbrotha. Give it up Thom, we know you are here!
 
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One song that reminds me of dp/dr is AFI-Dream of Waking....
I found it comforting when first fell into this....

Here's the lyrics....

Dream Of Waking Lyrics (Afi)

Afi - Dream Of Waking Lyrics
I feel it washing, over me,
slow poisonous tide.
Pins and needles, dance on me
sickness undefined.
Now I'm afraid, to face the sky,
please someone hear my haunting cry.

Please let them waken me, please let them waken me,
please let them waken me, please let them waken me.

Go!

With eyes sewn shut I still can see, I end up somewhere,
all that is surrounding me, somewhere in between,
Between a dream, I end up somewhere,
and motionless reality, will I forever lie?

I feel it binding, so smoothly,
I see myself below,
I feel it gnawing, eating me,
poisonous and slow.
My mind it speeds, my voice has died,
God let me make the faintest cry.

Please let them waken me, please let them waken me,
please let them waken me, please let them waken me.

Go!

With eyes sewn shut I still can see, I end up somewhere,
all that is surrounding me, somewhere between,
Between a dream, I end up somewhere,
and motionless reality, will I forever lie?

Binded by my hands, bind my legs, bind my eyes,
bind my mouth, bind everything.

Opened up, and for the taking,
just one touch and I'll be yours.
Open up, wide for the breaking
just one touch and I'll be yours.

What's on the other side, behind the mirror?
To try, I cry, to break, the static keeping me here in between,
What's on the other, side of the mirror?
To try, I cry, to break, the static keeping me here in between,
the static keeping me here in between.
 
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