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so no one in my family knows I deal with really bad anxiety and dr... only my sister does and she tries to understand me, but I feel like she never really will. I’m headed out of town for the weekend with my family and I’m petrified that I’ll have a huge derealization moment with anxiety and during those moments I don’t know what to do... nothing can convince me I’ll be okay, until it passes... but in the moment it feels like it will never go away... today I was out shopping and the whole day I felt like an alien, I literally couldn’t feel my family’s energy/emotion when talking to them... I don’t want to stay at home and miss moments like these, but I also don’t want to suffer... I want to LIVE! and I know that the only way to do that is push myself... but I’m terrified anxiety and dr will ruin it for me and I’ll cause a scene... I don’t want to be a burden to my family... but everyday I feel less connected to this world... any advice? (btw I’m only 20 and this shit has taken so much power over my life...)

 

[Al_pk]

Conventional wisdom would say to push yourself to go and do what you can do as the more you dwell with anxiety and dp, the firmer grip it has on you. However, I totally sympathise why you. I also want to live but at the same time i feel totally horrible doing it which then makes me want to hibernate. However i think you should be honest with your family with how you're feeling. I know it's difficult and some people aren't receptive but the truth is you're not well. When you take a step back from the situation you can see you have these spin out moments that come and go so you know deep down you will be okay whatever happens, but i think overall its really important to be honest with your family, and that might ease some of the pressure, and allow you to do things with a little more confidence