[rainboteers]

I got a really good job offer for the summer, but I am scared to take it because of the dp/dr. They offered me the lead therapy position at a nursing home that I previously volunteered at. Just for the summer while the therapy director is on maternity leave. I don't know what to do. I want to take it because it is a good opportunity, but I am afraid that it is to much for me right now.

For one thing if you have never worked at a nursing home it is very depressing. They are almost always understaffed. I did the best I could while I was there, but I always left feeling guilty. There is never enough time to give these people all of the care and attention they deserve. I don't need any more depression, I am fighting that hard enough.

Besides with this dp/dr crap I know it would be really hard. It is a stressful position to say the least. In my current state who am I to be giving therapy! Sorry if I am boring anyone. Just needed to write it out and see if anyone has any words of wisdom.

Uggg... life and timing is just not working with me. :roll:

 

[rainboteers]

Writing that out really helped me answer my own question. I am not going to take this job. The people there deserve better than what I am able to offer them right now. I guess it would be selfish of me to take the job knowing I can't give them what they need. This dp/dr stuff is really starting to get in my way. :x

 

[dakotajo]

Hi,

I wouldnt stress yourself out about this. I think you are making a wise decision by not taking the job. I wouldnt even give it another thought. Adding stress to you current state will only set you back. You need to give yourself a break right now. Youre on the right track and in time you will feel better. Who knows, once you are feeling better, another oppourtunity may arise.

Joe

 

[enngirl5]

I wrote recently about getting a job and the stress of it, but I don't think working in a nursing home is what you need right now with all the sadness and all. Have you tried applying at hospitals or clinics. You'll find a good job. And don't beat yourself up about not taking the job. It's your life. Do what is right for you.

 

[rainboteers]

Thanks! That helps me because I was also feeling guilty for not taking the job. They were giving me a hard time because they really needed someone. What am I supposed to say, "ummm sorry I had a nervous breakdown, and I am trying to heal." I guess I should have. I am sure it would have shut them up. :lol: Oh well! I wasn't even thinking of trying to get a job right now anyway. Of course when you aren't trying things fall into your lap. Maybe I will stop trying to get over the depression, anxiety, dp/dr, and health will fall into my lap. :roll:

 

[Da'Burgh]

In a way that's probably what you should do. Try your best not to let it bother you and it will fall right in place. I've been doing this and I have been feeling better by the day. The sensations are still here, but I think they know that they outweighed their welcome.

 

[rainboteers]

I am glad things are getting better for you Da'Burgh. You have the right attitude and I sure hope it will rub off on me.