I can't deal with this anymore. I was doing kinda alright for awhile but these last 2 days it's been so bad. I don't feel real, I feel like I'm dreaming and I feel so scared of everything. I keep thinking I'm going crazy and I've dealt with this shit before but I don't think it's ever been this bad. I don't wanna die but I just wanna stop feeling this way. I feel like the only way out of this is giving up.