Sometimes it is important that you focus inward as well. I know we have been told to focus outward but there comes a time when we need to really go inside ourselves and try to understand what is really going on inside our mind when the dp strikes. It is a painful illness to be in. I spent months, years trying desperately to keep doing things to keep my mind busy. I recently fell down and I fell down hard, I felt like I was to tired to ever get up and try again. I thought to myself, I keep hitting a wall, no matter what I do I am right back where I started, in the grip of this painful nightmare. I read the posts here and my heart goes out to all those who suffer with this. We are all trying to be well. What is this that we suffer?
One day I decided to start to keep a diary on how I feel. I go through my day and see how the dp/dr was and what was going on in my life when it is really bad. I am trying to find out what is triggering, is it my way of thinking that makes it worse? I have seen in the last while that when I am frightened the dp/dr get worse. When I am tired it gets worse. When I do not eat properly it gets worse. I know try to see if there is a connection between my emtions and the illness. There is, so now I try to face what is bothering me and learn ways to cope with it, like if I feel sad I let myself feel sad, if I feel like crying I cry, I have learned that hiding the feelings and keeping things bottled up does not help. I would focus outward all the time but I now know that I need to focus on what is going on inside, getting to know how I react to different things and learning to live with life's stresses.
I do not know what truly causes this illness, but one thing I do know that learning to live in it helps. I still believe that depersonalization is born when we put all our feelings away inside our mind for another day. The feelings have no where to go so eventually they find and out and that out is possibly dp/dr. One of the greatest emotions that I believe is responsible for this illness is fear. Learning to not be so afraid calms the mind and and lets one heal.
gem.
One day I decided to start to keep a diary on how I feel. I go through my day and see how the dp/dr was and what was going on in my life when it is really bad. I am trying to find out what is triggering, is it my way of thinking that makes it worse? I have seen in the last while that when I am frightened the dp/dr get worse. When I am tired it gets worse. When I do not eat properly it gets worse. I know try to see if there is a connection between my emtions and the illness. There is, so now I try to face what is bothering me and learn ways to cope with it, like if I feel sad I let myself feel sad, if I feel like crying I cry, I have learned that hiding the feelings and keeping things bottled up does not help. I would focus outward all the time but I now know that I need to focus on what is going on inside, getting to know how I react to different things and learning to live with life's stresses.
I do not know what truly causes this illness, but one thing I do know that learning to live in it helps. I still believe that depersonalization is born when we put all our feelings away inside our mind for another day. The feelings have no where to go so eventually they find and out and that out is possibly dp/dr. One of the greatest emotions that I believe is responsible for this illness is fear. Learning to not be so afraid calms the mind and and lets one heal.
gem.
