Gimpy's WMDs

I forgot I made this post. David, I don't know what about my post made you think I was proud of all those medications because I'm not. When you have had DP for five years and consider my openness to medications, you can rack up a list pretty fast. There are a number of other people on this board who have been through just as many meds as me. Some of those were temporary meds like Xanax and Ativan. Some I just tried and discontinued quickly because of side effects. Most of those medications work differently so you never know. A lot of it has been my suggestions to my doctor seeing what has helped other people on this board and upon other research.

Ziggomatix, let me ask you a question. You're in college. Do you "self-medicate" with drugs and alcohol? I only drink 1 or 2 nights a week now but get smashed. Rarely ever do drugs. For the past year, I have been on some combination of klonopin and wellbutrin, maybe with remeron or zoloft added. When I first started taking Klonopin and Wellbutrin, I was doing great but after a year on that, things went south and have been snowballing. I don't know if the Klonopin is weighing my system down or what.

I know Klonopin makes me depressed some, but it works so well for panic attacks. I am definitely most social and active on the Wellbutrin-Klonopin combo. But things still seem to get worse, partly because I drink on the weekends and when I get drunk, I get drunk.

Basically, I am wondering if I quit drinking (or at least cut down to 3 or 4 drinks instead of 15) will it allow the anidepressants to bring me up more than the klonopin brings me down.

I went off klonopin for a month not too long ago and was on Remeron during that process. My DP didn't get any better, it was in fact worse, and I was anti-social as hell. But, I never really had any bad withdrawal effects. I guess I was looking for more improvement faster but it just wasn't happening, so I went back on Klonopin.

Since I never had terrible withdrawal, I am also wondering if I am one of those people where long-term use of Klonopin either helps them or ruins them. Any thoughts?