I'm sorry for the post. I just thought this was a different idea that didn't fit into my other post.
I started thinking about my problems and tried to assess my situation. The situation is odd. I have DP/DR but mainly as a symptom of my anxiety. I'm in CBT to deal with that anxiety. However it seems to me as if CBT deals more directly with the thoughts that create anxiety such as, "I'm going insane" or "I'm going to have a heart attack" or "I'm going to dissassociate and lose myself completely." Dealing with these thoughts is a good thing. I'm going to have to stop my CBT shortly because I'm going back home after the semester is over. I think I'll be somewhat better off for having gone through it. However, it seems as if there are a bunch of layers to my problem; there are far more insecurities, fears, etc that result from my life and past experience (or lack thereof). So regardless if I'm better able to handle attacks of anxiety and dp/dr, the hidden layers of psychological BS will continue to throw stuff at me from my past. Is psychoanalysis better suited to this?
Also, I have almost short but intense "attacks" of depression. I'll realize that I haven't lived my life and formed necessary experiences or relationships that are required to function as a stable human being. Then I'll feel inadequate and as if im hopeless, and will inevitably fall apart because I'm unable to, or am not equipped to form new relationships or go through new experiences. These can last anywhere from 5 minutes to an hour. During these times I also experiene the DP/DR, its like because of this realization of my inability to cope in the future, I feel like shutting down or I just sit there silently freaking out. Is it possible for someone like me to get better? To truly change my life? I've always been disconnected from the world not because of my DP/DR (which is relatively new) but because I learned to withdraw at a very young age and continued that until now (18 almost 19). I feel like a child whose future has been determined by a past I can never repair. How can I learn to live in a world I've taught myself to withdraw from since the age of 5? I'm sorry for these meanderings, its just that shit seems so hopeless sometimes.
I started thinking about my problems and tried to assess my situation. The situation is odd. I have DP/DR but mainly as a symptom of my anxiety. I'm in CBT to deal with that anxiety. However it seems to me as if CBT deals more directly with the thoughts that create anxiety such as, "I'm going insane" or "I'm going to have a heart attack" or "I'm going to dissassociate and lose myself completely." Dealing with these thoughts is a good thing. I'm going to have to stop my CBT shortly because I'm going back home after the semester is over. I think I'll be somewhat better off for having gone through it. However, it seems as if there are a bunch of layers to my problem; there are far more insecurities, fears, etc that result from my life and past experience (or lack thereof). So regardless if I'm better able to handle attacks of anxiety and dp/dr, the hidden layers of psychological BS will continue to throw stuff at me from my past. Is psychoanalysis better suited to this?
Also, I have almost short but intense "attacks" of depression. I'll realize that I haven't lived my life and formed necessary experiences or relationships that are required to function as a stable human being. Then I'll feel inadequate and as if im hopeless, and will inevitably fall apart because I'm unable to, or am not equipped to form new relationships or go through new experiences. These can last anywhere from 5 minutes to an hour. During these times I also experiene the DP/DR, its like because of this realization of my inability to cope in the future, I feel like shutting down or I just sit there silently freaking out. Is it possible for someone like me to get better? To truly change my life? I've always been disconnected from the world not because of my DP/DR (which is relatively new) but because I learned to withdraw at a very young age and continued that until now (18 almost 19). I feel like a child whose future has been determined by a past I can never repair. How can I learn to live in a world I've taught myself to withdraw from since the age of 5? I'm sorry for these meanderings, its just that shit seems so hopeless sometimes.
