[Mily]

Does anyone else feel like they are no longer part of this world? Like,i know i am and i know that i'm alive but i just can't feel myself connected to anything anymore. I feel like a ghost,literaly. And i keep asking myself how is it possible that i'm still alive,i'm barley even concious.

 

[106473]

Again to reassure you, yes, that's how DP feels at times

 

[Erika]

This is the usual for the DPDR sufferer. My DPDR manifests itself not as a feeling of “detachment” from my surroundings, but as a feeling that “I’m not really there”, “I act, I think, I feel, but I am not really conscious of it”, just like another person acts, thinks and feels and I’m not conscious of their experience. It’s almost like my consciousness has been deleted and all that’s left of me is a collection of sensory inputs and responses. Sometimes I’m struck and in awe at how the human mind can actually be so conscious and so aware of itself. How are we not like machines that just do what they’re programmed to do without being conscious? Ugh, it’s already getting worse, I better stop thinking about this.

 

[Mily]

I just wonder will i ever feel the diference betwen this hell and actually getting better. Sometimes i don't even feel like a person. This are some scary feelings.