Lately, I've been feeling frustrated to the point of feeling like I'm going to explode. I think I need time to relax and feel carefree. I'm still in school, though, and weekends aren't enough to help me get better. I wish I could talk to someone I know about this and my dp, but my friends aren't the best with that type of thing and my boyfriend is always busy. Guess that's why I'm blogging. At least that way maybe someone will read this and that thought helps to partially leviate my pent up feelings. There's too many things that I have building up inside of me to ever really feel better, so I guess now is the point where I tell myself to suck it up and get over it.
In other non-depressing news, I have recently obtained my prom dress. I'm excited, but I feel guilty to have my parents spend so much money on it. I just want one night to be pretty and to have others realize that, so I hope it gets the job done.
Also, school is almost over! I can't wait to sleep in and not have any problems. I may start working in the summer, too, which will hopefully make me feel less DPed and grant me more experience before I go to college. That would definitely be one less thing to worry about during those years. College is already a satanic word that should never really be mentioned in my presence.
Other than that, I'm just trying to live one day at a time. I'm more of a 'live in the present' type of person, anyway.
its amazing if you still can handle school, hang in there - you're almost done
about the talking thing i know what you mean, this is a problem that not many people can understand. that is very frustrating (even for them). but hey, there are people on here reading these blogs every day (even if there aren't many comments). so you do get heard
but when you find that person, who do at least understands you enough to talk about it, it will be a tremendous relief.
hang in there and have an awesome prom in your lovely dress
Thanks for commenting again! I really appreciate it. : )
I will keep hope that I will find the right person to talk to about this and I will certainly try to have an amazing prom. Knowing me, I'll probably blog about that, too, so I guess you'll find out. Best wishes to you and any of your current problems and dp, also.
Thanks for commenting again! I really appreciate it. : )
I will keep hope that I will find the right person to talk to about this and I will certainly try to have an amazing prom. Knowing me, I'll probably blog about that, too, so I guess you'll find out. Best wishes to you and any of your current problems and dp, also.
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