[M A R S]

But NOW ITS FUKCING BACK!

 

[jake]

WOW how Cool to have felt OK for a whole week! Got any idea what made it be gone for a week? Or what triggered its ugly return? Sorry and I know how you feel. Sometimees I even wonder if when it does go if I will think where did it go and by so doing make it come back just by obsessing on the freedom from it! Hang in there, you aren't alone,
___Jake

 

[M A R S]

I had slipped a disk in my back and was in pain. That seemed to keep my DP away. All i could do was focus on my pain. Then I was able to go out to the bar one night and i was happy and free. As the week went on well mostly monday night the dark mental pain came back.

Tonight i tried to be ok, i was trying to relax and have a drink but the DP was getting stronger and stronger. Now its Wednesday morning and im crazy. I just took half a xanax and i feel numb to DP but its still there.

I only have a 12 pill supply now down to 10 of xanax. Ill most likely never get more so i have to only use them when im about to go out of my mind.

 

[agentcooper]

why will you never get more xanax? do they help you?

 

[M A R S]

Sure they help, But the Dr. will never give me more. I had to almost go crazy infront of him to just get 12 of them.

 

[Phill]

Can't you purchase some from the internet?

 

[M A R S]

If you have xanax with out a prescription in New York its a crime. I don't think you can even have it sent to your house. But how would i get it on the net any way?

 

[agentcooper]

i think you can go to an online doctor to get a scrip. anyway, if you need xanax and it's making you feel better, you should just keep switching doctors until you find one who gives you what you need. imo

 

[M A R S]

http://www.deadiversion.usdoj.gov/consumer_alert.htm

 

[Martinelv]

I'd advise against this. I've been tempted in the past, to order Diazepam over the internet, but apart from being a coward (the law is fuzzy about it here in the UK) I'm sure I would have become addicted to them if I could have them whenever I wanted them. They are restricted for a reason.

 

[Sojourner]

What you need to do is show your doctor that you are responsibly using the Xanax, and he most likely will give you more. If you demonstrate to him that you are being very judicious about it, there's no reason for him to hold back.

 

[Guest]

Just to let you know that maybe a month and a bit ago I felt better than I have in a long time (actually looking to the future, etc) but it's back now. Not bad, but back. I guess we have to sit it out.