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Feeling scared, frustrated, and confused! I mean really, enough of this already!! What the hell is wrong with me?

I was laying in bed this morning watching some silly Ben Affleck movie. The commercial break came and I got up to go into the kitchen and I had to totally readjust from being IN the movie and where it was taking place to being in my own home! My mind seems to get confused easily. It scares the crap out of me and I am so sick of it. My daughter asked me a question and I got that split second feeling of is she really my daughter. I have been getting this stuff a lot lately. I hate it and don't understand why.

I have done therapy, eat really well, take all sorts of herbs and vitamins, rest, exercise etc... I keep trying to float, ignore, etc... But the truth is I am white knuckling it through large portions of my day. I am smiling and faking it. I keep putting one foot in front of the other and hoping for the best yet I continue to suffer daily. Arrggg

I hate to be such a downer but I needed to vent and I need some advice and answers.

Am I loosing my mind???

xo

Sassy
 

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I understand that need to vent this sh*T Sassy, it gets OLD doesn't it? I have had that experience too where just the getting up and moving after having been semi-engrossed in somethng else makes me feel disoriented. It was suggested on here awhile back that we as DP-ers don't really get into the moment and "healthily" dissociate or lose ourselves in an activity the way "normal" ppl do cuz we are afraid if we do we will lose track of ourselves. Hence the frustration when we DO try to just watch tv or something and then when "re-associating" like movement to another room or something we feel turned around. Anybody else got any input? Any experience on ever feeling all in one freakin piece even from one activity to another or room in house for Gods sake? I mean really this stuff stinks!!!
 

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I think this happens to "normal" people too...It just doesn't scare them because they know they won't lose their contact with reality this way. I don't have THIS problem that often, though my dp/dr sometimes gets awfully bad after watching some movie etc.
 

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I'm trying to think up a mantra for this to be positive, and I keep remembering it being used as a joke--but ppl used to say "Wherever you go, There you are." So when I feel a flash of being terrorized by something, and my stomach flips and it feels like the bloods all left my body, I will say "I am here and all in one piece". Can't hurt to try.

I've found here an old book my sis gave me years ago by Louise Hay called "You can heal your life"..I skip thru most of it but one part she says to say "I approve of myself" 400+ times a day, a walking mantra. And then she says "No, 400 times is not too many, you are affirming negative things that often so why not?" I been trying that too. And "I am JUST FINE"..been trying that one too.
 

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Hey Honza, I guess I don't know what normal ppl experience in the way of feeling turned around or disoriented. I suppose when Ihave a problem I just assume there are ppl somewhere with NO similar symptoms. But you're suggesting all ppl at times feel disoriented to a degree, but don't get freaked by it. You're saying our fear is there bcuz of being conditioned to be afraid of anything "unusual" and then we clamp down or obsess on it hoping to figure it out? and thus "fix" it? I'd love to believe this is a habit of thought and reaction and nothhing more.
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I don't watch movies because of it, and don't read books during the day, only before sleeping.
 

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jake said:
Hey Honza, I guess I don't know what normal ppl experience in the way of feeling turned around or disoriented. I suppose when Ihave a problem I just assume there are ppl somewhere with NO similar symptoms. But you're suggesting all ppl at times feel disoriented to a degree, but don't get freaked by it. You're saying our fear is there bcuz of being conditioned to be afraid of anything "unusual" and then we clamp down or obsess on it hoping to figure it out? and thus "fix" it? I'd love to believe this is a habit of thought and reaction and nothhing more.
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Yes, that's what I think...we just freak out too much about everything. (Me too - I've been VERY hypochondric lately and even though I know it's just hypochondria, sometimes I really believe I have a cancer or something and/or will die tomorrow...) I can imagine that being disoriented after watching some movie may be quite confusing - but, you actually realised this is your home, not the movie, etc., didn't you? You just didn't lose your contact with reality.

Damn, I'm giving advices event though most of the time I feel quite bad myself...well, but I think they may be useful, anyway ;)
 
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I want to thank all of you for replying to my post. It helps me tremendously. I truely find comfort in the support I receive here. Other people have no idea what we go through.......... I do not expext them to. However to have people who really know what's up helps take the edge of the fear and mystery of dp/dr.

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lemontea said:
I think this happens to "normal" people too...It just doesn't scare them because they know they won't lose their contact with reality this way. I don't have THIS problem that often, though my dp/dr sometimes gets awfully bad after watching some movie etc.
You nailed it bro! Normal people have DP/DR anxiety and depression too. But its so mild or just doesnt bother them.

I remember when I was younger and would have wierd thoughts, and feelings that now would send me into a panic but before I would have these thoughts and be able to say "oh well, back to life"....I cant do that anymore.

Dont wanna burst everyones bubble, but WHEN you recover and heal up your not gonna wake up one day and feel like superman and like life is amazing...you basically wont feel as scared and depressed as much. And it will be easier to get on with life, and all these wierd thoughts will still be there but they wont be the number one thing on your mind like they are now.
 
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