[danilee]

I am so freaking out. I took a nap and when I woke up, i felt completely disconnected from my body. MY husband doesnt understand. I am so afraid that I am really losing my mind. I am ready to go to the ER, but i am also afraid of that. I feel so weird.

I am wondering if Zoloft is making me worse, I have never felt like this in my life, and I have been dealing with anxiety and panic for 11 years. Help me. I can't even believe ia m able to type this.

 

[bright23]

If you feel like you need to go to the ER, GO. Nothing to be afraid of there.

Otherwise, could you call your therapist's answering service, get through to him/her tonight? You can always call first thing tomorrow as well...

Feeling disconnected after waking up... many people here have experienced it, myself included. You're not going crazy.

 

[danilee]

I have not met my therapist yet, I just started seeing a pschiatrist last week.
I made an appt w/ a therapist for july 19 .
scared to go to er, because they might lock me up.

 

[RedCaineForNova]

omg thats what im so scared of, is like if i say too much of how im feeling (disconnected, unreality..."these hands arent mine...feel like im going crazy" ect.) they will put me in an institution....ugh im ony 17 i dont want to go in an institution.

 

[andymania]

Dani,

You have to give the zoloft time. Dont think right away that the zoloft is exacerbating the situation. It takes time for that med to kick in.

-Andy

 

[mcsiegs]

Danilee - here is a true story:

On April 29th of this year (I remember because it was my sister's birthday), I came to the height of a 4 month episode of DP and DR. Nothing seemed real - not me, not the world.

I finally broke down and told my girlfriend what I was going through. She was totally supportive, and I even went to the ER that night because I literally thought that something was majorly wrong.

Well, they didn't quite understand, but they did give me Ativan, and made an appointment with me to see a psychiatrist (my DP/DR was non-drug induced. I have been wrestling with it for over 12 years - I am 29 - due to a traumatic childhood).

Well, the psychiatrist changed my dosage of Paxil (up to 20mg from 10) and put me in psychoanalytic therapy. I finally put all my demons out there and conquered them. I am going on 6 weeks of no DP/DR.

My point is that for how low you feel now, this is how good you can feel soon. Never feel as though someone will commit you for going to the ER. People who need to be commited never recognize there is a problem. Visiting an ER on your own usually signifies a rational person, unless it is for suicide tendencies, in which they will commit you.

This disorder unfortunately is being too aware. Not crazy, just TOO sane.

Hang in there - get some therapy and get on the right meds. You will do just fine.

 

[bright23]

Danilee ?

It's great to hear you are see a therapist and psychiatrist. You are making positive steps and begining to deal with issues that have been troubling you for a long time. 11 years is a very long time to deal with this on your own.

I think its very common to be especially anxious at the beginning of treatment. I would highly recommend calling your psychiatrist first thing tomorrow if not tonight.

Never worry about going to the ER because they might "lock you up." Nobody can lock you up. It's against the law. Only you can admit yourself.

You're not going crazy, you're actually at the beginning of your healing process.

 

[Milan]

I can't really offer any more advice then what has been given apart from forcing your self not to stare straight into the eye of the demon. Try and focus as much as you can away from the sensations. This is the only thing that I can do when it gets that bad. It may not stop the feelings but it won't make it worse. Try also to use your husband for emotional support.

 

[Monkeydust]

Like others have said: if you need to go to the ER, go. Don't worry about being institutionalized, as far as I know that only happens if you're a danger to yourself or others (which you're not).

Having said that, I'm 99.9% sure that you will be fine, and you'll get past this bad patch in good time. That probably sounds really unconvincing, so I'll just let you know that I have been there myself, and at the time if you'd have told me I'd be OK I would never have believed you. But I came out of it. And I don't think I'm (all that) crazy either lol.

 

[M A R S]

I don't think you need to go to the ER, i have been just like this for about 3 weeks. In the past i have been to the ER and they just love to give out ativan. I have issues with atavan so i tend to stay away.

I can identify with you 100% i have woke up every day for weeks now thinking I'm about to lose it. Be in some kind of dream state.

It some times passes for a bit then comes right back. But i have hope i will be OK, and i have hope you will to.

 

[Guest]

The ER becomes some mythical fantasy "savior" in our minds. There is nothing the ER can do anyway except give you some anti-anxiety pills, take some information from you, make up a chart, suggest a therapist maybe and then send you home.

It ain't OZ, lol...no magical solutions exist there that don't exist elsewhere.

You're just scared because you're starting a new therapy relationship, that is predictable. We are so hungry for help and change and growth...but part of us is saying "wait.!! No, I don't want to change or grow., what will that FEEL like? I am scared of anything new....what they hell am I doing?" lol

one day at a time.
you'll be fine.

Peace,
Janine