[Snansje]

I keep having strange thoughts within a feedback loop, about the self. About who and what i’m.

sometimes scared to lose myself, to become fragmented or having a splitbrain, multipersonality disorder. This is all triggered by my looking for what i actually had. Looked into obscure old debunked ideas which made it worse. Like unconsciousness, the soul, fragmented consciousness.

Like it feels as if its impossible to see myself as a “whole”, this is a strange feeling. Combine this with strange thoughts that autorepeat itself constantly.

sometimes i feel only like the thinking in my mind. Or half of my body, or just a part of the brain. Scared that i would never be possible to see myself as a whole again.
does anyone have this too?

 

[coolwhip27]

I experience it too. It is a strange mindstate. It can be a real dilemma too, having experienced a brighter side of the mind you want to have it again. You want to find the inner peace you had before where everything was just flowing by and everything is a good time. But once the desire to cultivate the bliss is there, the bliss is gone. I’ll just leave it at that

 

[Snansje]

I experience it too. It is a strange mindstate. It can be a real dilemma too, having experienced a brighter side of the mind you want to have it again. You want to find the inner peace you had before where everything was just flowing by and everything is a good time. But once the desire to cultivate the bliss is there, the bliss is gone. I’ll just leave it at that

Some times is dissociate so bad sometimes i’m scared that my soul has been switched with that of someone else and that i can’t relate with my past anymore.

Or that i lost my identity fully.

 

[Snansje]

I experience it too. It is a strange mindstate. It can be a real dilemma too, having experienced a brighter side of the mind you want to have it again. You want to find the inner peace you had before where everything was just flowing by and everything is a good time. But once the desire to cultivate the bliss is there, the bliss is gone. I’ll just leave it at that

yes, its almost a altered mindstate, not a thought or a feeling. Alot of the times its almost gone. Dp is decreasing but when experiencing it makes the dp so much worse

 

[Dreetje35]

Ik herken dit zo erg. Ik heb het op dit moment heel erg. Vervelend is het he? Echt een soort bad trip achtige ervaring

 

[Snansje]

@Dreetje35 yup, ben een beetje klaar met DP. Het is gewoon pure angst en de meer ik er oo focus de erger het wordt