[blackwinded]

I don't know if this is involved in dr/dp or not, but i'm curious if anyone else has flat emotions?. The past year, i have really had very little feelings. I don't really get excited or happy from anything. My dad told me a while ago that he is taking me and my boyfriend and my sis and her boyfriend on a trip to the carribean this january. I have yet to feel any excitement about it. Vacationing is one of my favorite things in the world , but i don't feel excitement or happiness, i just don't seem to even care about anything. It's not like i'm depressed. I just plain don't feel any emotions. I feel really bad, because i obviously did'nt display any kind of excitement to my dad when he told me this.

I have no motivation no energy, and nothing interests me. When someone asks me what i like to do for fun or if i have any hobbies, i can never think of an answer.

When i actually do feel emotions, it's like i feel the wrong emotions for that situation. Like, if i am watching a movie, and something sad happens, it makes me laugh. Or, often, i feel like i have to be an actress. If My boyfriend does something stupid and irrisponsible, i'll know that i should be mad at him for it, but i don't really feel mad, yet, i make myself act out the anger i should be feeling so it will appear to him that i AM angry. It's like i am putting on some kind of theatrical performance.

.... this is probably all a part of the schizophrenia , but im curious if people with dp/dr experience any of this as well?

-Becka

 

[Guest]

it is a part of it, but i think only during an actual phase of it. Right now im feeling pretty good, kind of excited and generally in a good mood.

Arent you schizophrenic tho? Isnt that part of that disorder?

Hah sorry i didnt read all the way down to the bottom of your post.... id say its more the schizophrenia, cause i definately always can get angry if something provokes me too even during the worst times of DP

 

[Guest]

I often, i feel like i have to be an actress. If My boyfriend does something stupid and irrisponsible, i'll know that i should be mad at him for it, but i don't really feel mad, yet, i make myself act out the anger i should be feeling so it will appear to him that i AM angry. It's like i am putting on some kind of theatrical performance.

I know what you mean. I am like this every day, sometimes every other day. I think it goes hand in hand with my depression. I am an emotional person, so for me not to feel emotion, scares the crap out of me. Sometimes I so desperately want to feel a certain way and I just can't and it just makes me more depressed. I have tried the acting thing as well because I don't want people to wonder what is wrong with me. I don't know why some days I have appropriate emotions, some days I have uncontrollable emotions and still, on other days, I have either inappropriate or no emotions. I hate how up and down I am but I literally cannot control it. I guess I know how you feel. I don't have schizophrenia, tho.

 

[Guest]

Yeah... I suppose the emotions ARE there somewhere. I just can?t reach them - it?s like a was some computer with a lot of emotion-files on the harddisk, only these files would be protected with some user password that I don?t have. But I know the feelings ARE there. Not totaly gone.

 

[livinginhell333]

yea me too. i used to be pretty emotional and to feel nothing mentally, emotionally, physically, not feel gone is scary even though i can't feel scared, i know i am scared deep down inside.

 

[Luka]

I sometimes experience this flatness of emotions you're talking about. When I was younger (in highschool and college) it was worse and people complained about it I didn't comfort a friend and another girl asked me if I was "always this dead" :?

 

[DM]

DP/DR is the state of not feeling. And this is the cause. Not the other way around.

If you switch off certain emotions you are not connected to yourself (DP) and not to your environment (DR).

You turn yourself and yoyr environment into an object or a painting.

So - DP/DR is not the cause but actually the state of not feeling.

As we are sane people we function but we are emotionally hungry as we neglect certain normal emotional responses and certain things we would have normally done.

With me it worked like this: I was very unhappy with certain aspects of my life, I projected positive images of a changed situation in the future and felt relieved. However, once I lost the faith and belief in those images the negative feelings were so overwhelming that I started to neglect those feelings altogether - I became passive. After a year or so I switched off all those negative feelings and got DP/DR. For years I focused on DP/DR instead of on the emotions I switched off. Furthermore, by going on with your life and and starting to feel again DP/DR lifts, suddenly, and some strange things happen immediately - planning for the future feels real again, tiredness disappears, despair dissappears, smelling and tasting is suddenly intact....