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I feel like this post is long overdue. I have been reading these forums for a few weeks now ever since I found people with relatable symptoms. Having a rough one and need to speak with people who can relate. This might be long because I feel I need to get this stuff out finally, so here it goes...
I am a 27 year old male from California suffering from what I think might be DPDR. I have had severe anxiety and panic attacks since I was 14 that have come and gone. I have been overly caught up in my career for the last 7 years and just kept working thinking I would grow out of it. Everything was going really well in my life and then this happened.
It all started 6 weeks ago, shortly after thanksgiving. I was going about my day, went to get into my truck when I felt my right arm experience a weightless feeling. I felt an anxiety attack coming on but kept going about my business. I arrived at my parents house a few minutes later and when I parked I noticed a strange feeling. I was looking at a mailbox and felt although I was high or in a dream. It kind of freaked me out but figured I was tired and probably needed to eat. So I did both. I returned to my house and ate a ton of random food and took a nap. When I woke up, I was still in this dreamy like state, felt high (Haven't smoked in 10 years) and people seemed strange.
The next night while babysitting some friends children, I felt something in my body shift and went into a gnarly depression and existential crisis. Felt unreal, felt trapped in my own body but outside of body at the same time. I had a full breakdown that night. Hadn't cried since before my best friend died in 2012. wound up in the ER because I was so scared this was happening.
Since that night my problems have just snowballed into a mess. I am now feeling like everything and everyone is unfamiliar, its hard to recognize myself in the mirror, don't even recognize my own house. I feel although my actions are automated or I'm on autopilot. Time seems weird, like things I did this morning feel like 3 days ago. My memories are there but feel like they are not mine. Feel like iv lost my own identity and keep thinking I'm going to snap into not knowing anything about my life. Oh also my sense of touch is so strange. Feels like I'm unresponsive and someone is touching me. Like it registers but delayed and feels like its not my feeling lol sounds sooo weird. Cant sleep, sensitive to light, headaches, weightlessness etc.
Somehow I am functioning, working kinda, moving houses this week, driving myself around (feels sketchy) and going to all my appointments. I have had an MRI, extensive blood tests, other tests for kidneys, liver, heart, deficiencies and still nothing! Been going to acupuncture but its not doing anything. Am I losing it or is this DPDR?
Sorry for the long post as a newbie....
I am a 27 year old male from California suffering from what I think might be DPDR. I have had severe anxiety and panic attacks since I was 14 that have come and gone. I have been overly caught up in my career for the last 7 years and just kept working thinking I would grow out of it. Everything was going really well in my life and then this happened.
It all started 6 weeks ago, shortly after thanksgiving. I was going about my day, went to get into my truck when I felt my right arm experience a weightless feeling. I felt an anxiety attack coming on but kept going about my business. I arrived at my parents house a few minutes later and when I parked I noticed a strange feeling. I was looking at a mailbox and felt although I was high or in a dream. It kind of freaked me out but figured I was tired and probably needed to eat. So I did both. I returned to my house and ate a ton of random food and took a nap. When I woke up, I was still in this dreamy like state, felt high (Haven't smoked in 10 years) and people seemed strange.
The next night while babysitting some friends children, I felt something in my body shift and went into a gnarly depression and existential crisis. Felt unreal, felt trapped in my own body but outside of body at the same time. I had a full breakdown that night. Hadn't cried since before my best friend died in 2012. wound up in the ER because I was so scared this was happening.
Since that night my problems have just snowballed into a mess. I am now feeling like everything and everyone is unfamiliar, its hard to recognize myself in the mirror, don't even recognize my own house. I feel although my actions are automated or I'm on autopilot. Time seems weird, like things I did this morning feel like 3 days ago. My memories are there but feel like they are not mine. Feel like iv lost my own identity and keep thinking I'm going to snap into not knowing anything about my life. Oh also my sense of touch is so strange. Feels like I'm unresponsive and someone is touching me. Like it registers but delayed and feels like its not my feeling lol sounds sooo weird. Cant sleep, sensitive to light, headaches, weightlessness etc.
Somehow I am functioning, working kinda, moving houses this week, driving myself around (feels sketchy) and going to all my appointments. I have had an MRI, extensive blood tests, other tests for kidneys, liver, heart, deficiencies and still nothing! Been going to acupuncture but its not doing anything. Am I losing it or is this DPDR?
Sorry for the long post as a newbie....
