[shadowness]

well...

i am 20 today...

and i cannot stand having any attention....

it is a lovely day outside...bright and sunny...

i have some nice presents and i have lots of cards...

but i feel more detached than i have ever felt...

i hate this...i really want it to stop!

nothing feels right...

nothing feels real...

i can remember what normal feels like! it is so frustrating...

ah well...i am going to try to enjoy the day...going to do a few hours work...have fish and chips...watch some films...read my new book...

hope you are all well...

take care all.

 

[Guest]

Happy Birthday! I am 21 years old and I know how you feel. I just pray to God to help me through this. I am getting better, but at a very slow pace.

-Robbie

 

[dreamcatcher]

happy birthday shadow ......i remember been 20, young and tied down with 2 kids

 

[gem]

Shadowness, have a wonderful birthday, this is your day, a day to celebrate you. I know how hard it is to have this illness but one day you will be better. Take care and have a great day.

gem.

 

[Guest]

Hi Shadow,

Happy birthday!!! I know it's hard but try not to think for your birthday.

Eat some good cake, and do stuff you like to do.

You are a nice person, who always helped me in tought days (and there's a lot!) You have some strengh inside.

Take care,

K 8)

 

[Guest]

Happy Birthday, Shadowness

 

[Guest]

Happy Birthday kid
I hope you're sitting outside in the sun right now, thinking only happy thoughts..............

 

[enigma]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Shadow.

I was dp/dr'rd on my twentieth birthday too (as well as my nineteenth,eighteenth, and I think sixteenth), so I know what that's like.

Just give yourself a break from worrying about it today and have a real good time!

e

 

[enigma]

Oh, and of course my seventeenth (as if the dp/dr would've given that a miss :roll: ), and all subsequent ones since. But I manage to enjoy (somehow).

e

 

[shadowness]

wow thank you everyone!

thank you so much for the birthday wishes!



today has felt very odd indeed...

but i intend to eat some cake and enjoy whatever i can of today

thank you again everyone!

 

[Depersonalized]

I did not get sH*t for my last birthday and almost got into a hospital, and the birthday before that I ended in the emergency room, so stop whining, if you got so many cards and gifts. I can't even remember when I had a nice birthday. DP is tough we all now that, complaining about it just makes it even worse, and sympathy from other people makes it worse, so get a grip.

 

[dreamcatcher]

I did not get sH*t for my last birthday and almost got into a hospital, and the birthday before that I ended in the emergency room, so stop whining, if you got so many cards and gifts. I can't even remember when I had a nice birthday. DP is tough we all now that, complaining about it just makes it even worse, and sympathy from other people makes it worse, so get a grip.

i'm sorry that you got sh*t for your birthday and haven't had a pleasant one in a few years but shadows quiet entitled to whine as you put it on hers......we all know dp is tough but that should give us all more sympathy for others with it....so the way i see it is it should be you that gets a grip and not put a dampener on someones birthday.....

sorry if this annoys anyone

and a BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN SHADOW

 

[shadowness]

I did not get sH*t for my last birthday and almost got into a hospital, and the birthday before that I ended in the emergency room, so stop whining, if you got so many cards and gifts. I can't even remember when I had a nice birthday. DP is tough we all now that, complaining about it just makes it even worse, and sympathy from other people makes it worse, so get a grip.

i do not ask for sympathy...

i never said i had the worst ever birthday in the world...nor did i say that no one else could have a worse off birthday...i am very sorry to hear what you have been through...

but if it makes you feel any better last year i spent the day before my birthday at my therapists funeral and did not hear anything from most my family, 4 members of my family and 3 friends were in hospital at the time and we were told to leave our house and i nearly ended up in hospital myself...does that justify or make it more acceptable to 'whine'?

at the end of the day...this is not the worst day...not for me...not for you...someone somewhere is in more pain than we will ever know...

why dont we all stop complaining because there are people dying and in far worse pain and suffering...

why do we not just all get a grip...including you!

but it does not mean we are not suffering and sometimes we just need to vent...and i just needed to vent today...surely you can understand that?

i do not usually reply to these kind of posts as it is a waste of time...

but next time you complain/whine/share how you are feeling...read what you have put as the same could be said to you and anyone else here.

think before you post next time please...for the sake of whoevers thead you post on next...

and thank you dreamcatcher

 

[Guest]

my last birthday i had the worst day of my life, i was throwing up and my stomach hurt soooooo bad

 

[JAG]

Leave shadowness alone!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHADOWNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[enigma]

I did not get sH*t for my last birthday and almost got into a hospital, and the birthday before that I ended in the emergency room, so stop whining, if you got so many cards and gifts. I can't even remember when I had a nice birthday. DP is tough we all now that, complaining about it just makes it even worse, and sympathy from other people makes it worse, so get a grip.

Sounds like you're having a really bad day, fella. Calm down.

This doesn't sound like you at all (you're normally such a mellow type). So I'll just presume something didn't agree with you, or there's something going on in your life that's really got you on edge.

But try to remember that, among other things, this site is a kind of international dumping ground for peoples inner demons (we certainly don't have to conceal them here, anyway). And if Shadowness can't use it for that, then I can't and neither can you.

So chill and take it easy,

e

"This is supposed to be a happy occasion, So let's not bicker and argue over who killed who..." -Michael Palin, Monty Python and the Holy Grail