[Guest]

Why does my mind insist on constantly trying to get to the bottom of these feelings.
I find it impossible. I will start thinking about how i feel and what is happening in my mind, then the line of thought disappears and I cant remember where Id got to. its just gone. Then another starts until in the end my mind is so confused it makes me panic.
Is it normal to do this???

My thoughts feel like a solid block that has split into pieces that need putting together. Im starting to panic now, just writing this!!

In the end, my thought become distant, unreal and not part of me.

How can I solve this problem if I dont understand my own mind and how will I ever get better.

Can anyone out there understand what I mean. Im getting pretty desperate now and dont know where to turn.
Thanks

 

[Guest]

i havent a clue but its so nice to see someone that has realised they have a problem around here and are activley looking for ways to relove it.

How can I solve this problem if I dont understand my own mind

im glad you are trying to find out how to solve your problem insead of getting sucked into depression

 

[bat]

the only thing you can do is try and stop the process each time it starts. throw your attention onto anything else you can as soon as you realise it's starting. just keep on doing this and it will eventually get easier

 

[Guest]

Have you any ideas how I can do this when travelling as a passenger in a car or on a bus?

Im starting a full time course at college next week, trying to give my brain something else to think about.
Problem is, its an hours bus drive there each morning. Im worried that I will arrive at college in a 'deep thought' panicky state by the time the journey is over. When travelling there is nothing I can do to distract. I just start the thinking thing.

 

[enngirl5]

Take a newspaper, book, laptop, crossword puzzle, etc with you so you'll have something to do on the bus ride.

 

[bat]

revise what you've done in college in your mind. learn any points you need to so you won't have the pressure if you've exams. spend the time working out goals you want and how to achieve them. dose if you have enough time. bring your breakfast with you. write a poem.

 

[anti-anti depressants]

I constantly question myself. " Why do I feel different to how I did before",
"Why do places seem strange and surreal", "Why cant I just go back to how I was feeling before". These thoughts have been going through my mind for the last 9 months, yet I still have'nt found the answer. I guess it's just a case of going with the flow.

 

[peaceboy23]

I can completely understand what you are saying. It's funny,because I am so convinced that my experience is unique, and I wamt to be like a little child "You don't understand me, you're not my real friend" or whatever. Im convinced this weird thing I have where i feel like I'm constantly waiting for something, or trying to figure something out or catch up with something is solely unique to me, and I'm so convinced that focusing outward isn't going to change it, when deep down secretly i know that it's the only thing I can do and I CAN get better. Every once in a while i get very despairing though, a hopeless fear. I think part of this is fear of death, becasue I tink about that fairly frequently. I guess it's true that the dp is there to protect us from something. For me it's several things, it's almost the one year anniversary of my roommates death, and a lot of things are reminding me of it, the smell of the air, classes starting again, television shows we used to watch together. Another thing is my depression, and then other fears. One thing I need to remember is that this is not unique to me, and that I need to focus outward to get better, others have done it before me and it's the only way, along with therapy. I have little snatches of time where I feel better, but that's it...hopefully with the focusing outward and the therapy i can regain realization. Sorry for the long rambling post, just a few of my thoughts.

 

[Guest]

I can completely understand what you are saying. It's funny,because I am so convinced that my experience is unique, and I wamt to be like a little child "You don't understand me, you're not my real friend" or whatever. Im convinced this weird thing I have where i feel like I'm constantly waiting for something, or trying to figure something out or catch up with something is solely unique to me, and I'm so convinced that focusing outward isn't going to change it, when deep down secretly i know that it's the only thing I can do and I CAN get better. Every once in a while i get very despairing though, a hopeless fear. I think part of this is fear of death, becasue I tink about that fairly frequently. I guess it's true that the dp is there to protect us from something. For me it's several things, it's almost the one year anniversary of my roommates death, and a lot of things are reminding me of it, the smell of the air, classes starting again, television shows we used to watch together. Another thing is my depression, and then other fears. One thing I need to remember is that this is not unique to me, and that I need to focus outward to get better, others have done it before me and it's the only way, along with therapy. I have little snatches of time where I feel better, but that's it...hopefully with the focusing outward and the therapy i can regain realization. Sorry for the long rambling post, just a few of my thoughts.

This post, and this whole thread, I'm glad I read.

 

[g-funk]

Trying to figure it out....this is the nature of the beast.
You can't 'figure it out'. We are convinced that we can, that everything can be understood and will be, and then we are safe.
Not so, unfortunately. It will only take you further in.
Focusing outwards really is the only option. And it is the hardest option :evil:

 

[Guest]

So does focussing outward mean just distracting yourself. I dont understand what focussing outward is nor how I do it.

All I feel is fear. When I try to self talk, my voice inside feels strange and distant.

Do I just try to ignore all this and carry on.

Please tell me how I do it.

 

[Sojourner]

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/de ... 9?v=glance