I think im done. Im done feeling. I dont know why but i dont want or even see the significance of feeling good. Of feeling happy. I simply just do not want to feel anything and not exist. Good feelings dont matter anymore. I know they feel good but i simply dont feel they are worth it anymore. I think about feelings and emotions so much. I think about how the negative ones are painful so obviously i dont want to feel them but the positive ones no longer seem worth it. I dont want to enjoy anything, i dont want peace. I cant enjoy them because i see no reason to. I dont want anything. Im in a weird middle ground right now. I feel nothing and also want to BE nothing.