[allison84]

It's two years now having dp dr it did get near gone a while back , unfountently its back in full force .

Over these two years the feelings have changed alot and cause i have health anxiety,I freak out .

One feeling I'm dealing with lately is i feel completly different,like who i once was is 100% gone , I feel really strange and kinda evil , I feel confused about who.iam its that bad .
It's like I was just born honestly like I was born just now , also i feel very irritated and annoyed by everyone near me.

Anyone else feel new and just born ? I'm not talking about no sense of self this is different to that ..

Any one ?

 

[eddy1886]

It's two years now having dp dr it did get near gone a while back , unfountently its back in full force .

Over these two years the feelings have changed alot and cause i have health anxiety,I freak out .

One feeling I'm dealing with lately is i feel completly different,like who i once was is 100% gone , I feel really strange and kinda evil , I feel confused about who.iam its that bad .
It's like I was just born honestly like I was born just now , also i feel very irritated and annoyed by everyone near me.

Anyone else feel new and just born ? I'm not talking about no sense of self this is different to that ..

Any one ?

Me too...But not in the sense of a new persona....or a new identity....more a new way of observing and looking at things...

But I know exactly what your talking about Allison....Ive talked to a few DP sufferers over the years who literally feel like they were just new born and that there previous life never even happened...

 

[allison84]

Yes that's exact what I mean it's like im new born and my previous life wasnt mine , its like nothing in the past happened like I'm walking around trying to figure out everything because it's new.
This sucks
Thanks for your reply eddy

 

[eddy1886]

Allison remember it only FEELS like that....You deep down know it not to be true....You do actually remember your life and all the stuff that has gone before....It just FEELS like its gone or never happened....Its not an actual FACT that you truly believe to be true if ya know what I mean....So try not to take the symptom and run with it (like most of us DP sufferers do so often) And dont turn it into something more sinister inside your head....Its a very very common DP symptom...

 

[Piecat77]

I get this as well to a certain extent. I feel like for me my DP is similar to how a lot of people describe DID in a way, except my "alter" doesn't have any sense of personality or identity. When mine is bad I just feel like my brain is split into two, half of me knows exactly where I am and everything about myself and the other half of my brain has complete amnesia to everything, as if I woke up on some sort of alien planet in a strange creature's body. Some times one side overpowers the other side. It's a very conflicting and scary.

 

[MusicaElectronica]

Yes I feel like I don't know who I'm,like everything is new...and when I'm thinking back on memories from the time before dp/dr it feels just weird.
I feel like I have had an blackout or brain injury or something and forgot my life

 

[FranticallyNumb]

When I first experienced dp, I woke up feeling reborn, like everything was strange and unfamiliar and scary. I felt like a baby too, like I drank one of those “drink me” potions in Lewis Carrol’s Alice in Wonderland....distortion. Anyway, my point is that I completely know how you’re feeling, how terrifying it was, and still is sometimes. I’m so sorry others have experienced this type of depersonalization. Simultaneously, it’s a bittersweet relief that others have experienced this type of dissociation too =\

 

[FranticallyNumb]

...that I’m not the only one who’s haunted by this

 

[FranticallyNumb]

Lately, that perception/experience has returned...or ptsd regarding thinking about it. My grandma passed away a couple weeks ago, who I was really close to, and of course the dissociation returned along with that.

 

[FranticallyNumb]

I know if I had DID there would be periods of time that I wouldn’t remember, and I haven’t experienced that, throughout the 9 years of dp

 

[allison84]

Frantically numb so sorry about your grandmother
I hope you get well soon