Im feeling very lost. I always cared about others. But because of a certain thought, ive started losing meaning to the attachments i have with people, including family. It started with me wondering what value love has. And when i found non in an objective sense, it all has started to disentegrate. I feel an empathy to others still and dont want someone else to suffer but attachments themselves are starting to make less and less sense to me. Why do i need other people to have a good life? I was once deeply in love with somebody. I know the feeling and that they seemed more important than anything, than myself even at the time. But now i am stuck here wondering why i need love or relationships even with family. I also just have no conceptual meaning to work off of for why life even matters at all. Sometimes, i truely wish nothing existed because nothingness is the only thing that seems logical. Why is there something? How can the big bang just happen? Wheres that leave life? I hate this.